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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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This reminds me of the quote, "Shame dies when stories are told in safe spaces", which makes me wonder: what would it be like to talk about these thoughts in a safe space? @MissGremlin

I wouldn't be surprised if you shared how you're feeling and many people on here resonated. I had an experience like this the other day when I shared something I felt shame around, and the person said they had a similar experience and felt closer to me afterwards. Know that the same can absolutely be true for you.

I guess what I am saying is, we are here to listen if you feel like sharing. ☺️

Have you been able to make it to bed tonight? 🫶

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@AuntGlow this specific subject is embarrassing to even think about talking about and the fear of judgement over it is strong. It would also be hard to say it without breaching guidelines i think. It's something that weighs so heavily on me and it's not something I can understand or even begin to make sense of (I'm safe).

I made it to bed, did some diamond art and I've been watching my TV show or it's on in the background anyway. I'm not tired which worries me, Thursday night i had an hours sleep and the past 2 nights I've only had 3 hours of very broken sleep.

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That's okay, I hear you and understand that sharing might be too much right now... I wonder what would happen if you told Casper how you're feeling? @MissGremlin 🥰

Goodness, you must be exhausted. I can imagine your nervous system is a little heightened right now, so maybe having a show on in the background and easing into a more grounded state could be a helpful focus?

I will be here to check-in tomorrow. 🫶

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@AuntGlow Casper gets told all my feelings and gladly licks away the tears that often come with them 😂.

I'm exhausted mentally and emotionally but not physically. I've just turned my show off and I'm laying here with Casper in silence listening to the crickets outside.

Hope you have a good night sweet ❤️.

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Morning @MissGremlin 😊, glad Casper enjoyed the walk you took him on 🐶, also glad you could see the funny side of your friends dad beeping his horn ☺️🤭🙈.

Sorry about your night, how’s the dimond art going? What one are you working on atm?

off to sleep shortly, hope your day goes ok. Gah, I feel bad desperately want to be on the forum connecting and responding to everyone whilst I’m in a good window as-well, fingers crossed it stays like this and all the ducks are lined up 🦆🦆🦆 🤞🤞🤞also feel extra extra bad my responses are taking forever for everyone, I do feel I am letting everyone down, actually I know I am letting everyone down, I really don’t like to do that. I know everyone may understand but it’s definitely something I’m aware of and hold. I think I’d like a personal assistant who could just type what I think in real time would be awesome 🤩

Hiya @AuntGlow lovely to see you around the forum, now two consecutive days which is awesome 🤩! Thanks for hanging out with us. Always much appreciated ☀️😊. I hope you have a lovely day and have a good week ahead 💫☕️

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Morning @Chasingsunsets sweet. It was a rough night. I'll see if I can find the picture of the one I'm working on and I'll tag you.

Hoping you can get some rest and please don't ever feel like you're letting anyone down here. We all genuinely understand and know that it can be hard to get online sometimes for many reasons.

Be gentle with your wonderful self sending you hugs ❤️.

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Woah @MissGremlin that Dimond art looks like a big piece! I’m curious how big this one is 😊

Thanks @MissGremlin, it’s just I wish it could be different re getting on the forum etc, I really love real time chats, something so wholesome when it’s a back and forth chat sometimes, I definitely do not take those moments for granted 💛

thanks for all our chats i thoroughly enjoy connecting (real time or extended) and your pics on highlights page have blown me away just clawing my way back 😂💨. Hope to connect soon my friend, right now I have Indi’s paws in my face, lucky I like her ☺️

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How's your morning been @MissGremlin ?

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@NightFury really bad. I'm not sitting in a good space (I'm safe).

Would you like to have a cuppa with me?

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I would love to have a cuppa with you. @MissGremlin I'm here for you.

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