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@Captain24 can completely understand that, i stay out of any sort of drama like that. I'm proud of you sweet, you did so incredibly well to get everything done and cooked in time ❤️.

That's awesome having picture rails down the hall and would be so cool to do it through the rest of the house.

Hoping i can get some next pay but will also have to get Caspers food which is $150 so we'll see what happens.

@heartathome oh that's absolutely gorgeous 😍. I've been eyeing off 2 heart ones that keep popping up when I search through ones I want to get. I might have to get one now ☺️.

😮Oh, I love the second one @MissGremlin ! The swirls remind me of the paisley fabric of the 70's. It looks really hard to do, though!

@heartathome maybe I'll have to order it and see just how much of a challenge it is ☺️

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@MissGremlin wrote:

I wanted to share a little win, well to me it feels like a win. This morning I was sitting in bed and I got the thought of 'I want to go for a walk', in that moment o was ready to get up and go but then my anxiety kicked in and all the thoughts of 'what are you thinking, you can't do it, it's not going to happen, don't even try' went through my head. So I stayed in my bed until I had to go to the shops. Anyway fast forward to tonight and I was sitting on my kitchen floor and had that same thought but this time a little different cos it was 'I'm going to go for a walk' and I did it, I put Caspers harness on and off we went. It was a hard walk as 2 people went past that I knew and I just felt uncomfortable within myself but I did it regardless.

@Captain24 @NightFury @Jynx @AlwaysMyself @Flutterbug9 @Chasingsunsets @heartathome @AuntGlow @Shaz51 @rav3n @ENKELI

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Hello lovely! Thank you so much for sharing this, it's absolutely a win. 🤩 @MissGremlin

Noticing these small wins makes such a huge difference, doesn't it?

How did it feel for you and have you noticed any other moments like this today? 🫶

Hello @AuntGlow sweet, it made a difference for a very short time. I did have another moment this morning where I got asked to be an admin for a mental health group that I'm in. But I'm finding those moments are so short lived before things come crashing down.

I'm currently sitting on my kitchen floor in a rather bad state, I'm grumpy, emotional, angry and really frustrated with myself. Have lots of thoughts that are quickly spiralling out of control but those thoughts bring up specific feelings that make me incredibly uncomfortable and ashamed. I'm safe for the moment and I'm going to start my bedtime routine soon if I can calm down enough to move.

How are you doing?

I understand what you mean by short-lived moments @MissGremlin, it can feel very vulnerable to experience lightness one moment and heaviness the next... it sounds like you're doing a really beautiful job of grounding and surrendering to how you feel by sitting on the kitchen floor.

What does the shame need to feel held right now?

Maybe we can start there? 🥰

@AuntGlow yes the sudden change between the 2 feelings is really hard.

I'm not sure, the shame is incredibly hard to sit with. It's making me feel like I'm not normal and that I'm not in control of my thoughts, feelings and actions (I'm safe).

I just finished doing my dishes, slowly getting closer to being able to sit in bed.

Evening @MissGremlin 😊☀️, firstly you went for a walk yesterday! That is awesome!! What a massive win and I am sure Casper loved it so much!! Got to love your friends dad, a toot to awaken the nervous system which was happy enough to just go for a low stimulus walk lol - then 🚗. Got to see the funny side hehe
I totally get that feeling of sometimes feeling worse, just your system adjusting to something new maybe? There is a lot that can be experienced in a walk so I completely understand, I wonder what you saw? How was the weather? Cold/ warm? Did Casper find or see anything interesting?
Thanks so much for including me in your win definitely celebrating with you! 💛

Sorry about yesterday in the morning my service dropped - very inconvenient, until this afternoon but start overnight work tonight so hadn’t been able to get on until recently. I have a few days off soon and I really look forward to that and hope service stays ok, for a decent chat. Missing everyone here!! I hope your night is going ok. Night night 😊

@Chasingsunsets Casper enjoyed the walk and the car beep was funny after the fact, also took my brain a second to realise who it was. I was walking regularly at one stage for a few weeks but then it just stopped. The weather was warm, I didn't really notice much around as my anxiety was high so I just focused on Casper and getting back home.

That's frustrating that your service dropped. Hope work goes ok and that those days off coming up your service stays connected. My night is proving to be really rough (I'm safe). I'm watching my TV show and doing a bit of diamond art.

Take care of yourself sweet ❤️