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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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@Captain24 no it's not you that overwhelmed me sweet, it's just this time of day gets really busy for me and i don't get to sit down until is bedtime.

I'll reply a little later tonight sweetheart, sending love and hugs ❤️

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@MissGremlin @NightFury

You are both welcome to laugh at my silly memory

buttered toast on kitchen bench. I got distracted (can’t remember what with by now). Stood near kitchen bench waiting for toast to pop up. 😆

wonder if there are any replacement brain/memory outlets nearby. 🤣 🤣

big virtual hugs to Luna, Casper already has had some. 😊

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@Flutterbug9 haha oh sweet, this is exactly the sort of thing I do 😂.

If you do happen to find any replacement brain/memory outlets, please share where they are cos i need some too 😂

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Hi @Flutterbug9

Sounds a lot like my brain. I would totally do something like that.

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@Captain24 it's the only support I have at the moment so I'm really scared of losing it.

The headaches from crying are horrible, it's another reason I don't like to cry. The pain relief didn't help and now it's turned into a migraine. I'm in bed now so hoping I can get enough sleep tonight and that it will go away.

I'm glad you had a sleep, having that energy and not being able to sit still is tough. I'm glad you have your psych tomorrow sweet, how are things feeling for you now?

I'm glad it was ok at mums, I can relate to not liking to cut up dog food. Food you manage to make dinner and unpack the dishwasher?

I'm sorry about earlier sweetheart ❤️.

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@Flutterbug9 coming back to the rest of this post now sweet.

I'm sorry it sent your mind into a spiral but I can completely understand why.

That cross stitch is gorgeous 😍. Can completely relate to getting angry at yourself over it especially if it's a larger mistake. I also get like that and know that i need to pack whatever I'm doing up and step away though sometimes I don't quite catch myself in time before reacting.

I remember seeing the bears, they are so awesome when they are built. That's devastating that they fell and broke, they'll be there when you are ready to put them back together though.

That's so cool that you took some of them in with you when you saw your psychologist, I'm glad it brought a side out of them that you like ☺️.

I'm the same with activities and have so many things going at once. I've been doing the diamond art for a couple of months, before that it was colouring, have some cross stitch going aswell and crochet, also paintings. Hoping all goes well with the hospital stay and I know I'd love to follow along with updates to hear how you are doing sweet.

I'm glad you didn't have any tears today, I shed enough for many people 😂. Hoping you got some relief from the eye drops cos dry eyes are horrible.

Hope the evening is going ok for you sweetheart ❤️.

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@NightFury finally getting around to replying, I'm sorry I couldn't earlier sweet.

I'm so glad you had a day off today and getting some extra sleep is fantastic. Well done for getting some housework done, the shopping and having your gp appointment. That's awesome that you've got a desk set-up now, definitely sounds like it will be more comfortable than the kitchen table.

Going out to a Cafe for lunch sounds lovely and I'm so glad that you decided to give yourself the afternoon off and did some painting. You really deserve that time for some self care sweetheart so I'm proud of you for doing just that.

Hope the evening has been kind to you, sending you hugs beautiful ❤️

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My mood is crashing a little bit tonight @MissGremlin today has been good for me and I needed it.

But my mood is crashing now. I'll be okay, I've just popped the jug on to have a cup of sleep tea and got into my PJ's, so I've started the bed time wind down.

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@NightFury sorry to hear your mood is crashing sweet but I'm glad that you're in your pjs and going to have a cup of sleep tea. I'm sitting on my bed now with my diamond art, Casper, music and an iced coffee.

Sending you lots of hugs ❤️

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@MissGremlin dragon = Wow! That’s gorgeous plus so cute

the capybara looks like might be same type as my brick bears

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