Battles

I’m glad it went well @MissGremlin. I’m sorry that it’s coming to and end, at least they have been someone you can offload to while you have nothing else.

I get the headache from crying, I hope the pain relief works.

I just had a sleep and was trying to some diamond art but I have an energy about me and I can’t sit still. I can’t do anything as I can’t think straight and can’t process anything. It’s all just rapid in my head. Just writing this has made me realise what it is. I need to stop it and I need to stop it now! Lucky I have my psych tomorrow to help me with it.

It was ok at mums, I wasn’t there very long, just grabbed the food and left. It’s now in the fridge for me to cut up but I hate doing that so I’m putting it off. I’ll have to do it before dinner though as I need to cook mine. That reminds me, I still haven’t unpacked the dishwasher!

Hoes your afternoon coming along?

Hello @NightFury my sweet, it's been a day full of emotions. I've been a real mess today, those tears just wouldn't stop (I'm safe).

How's things over there?

Part of me wants to go silent, part of me wants and knows I need the connections, part of me constantly worrying, part of me knows I need to talk things out, part of me wanting the other parts to stop thinking and debating with each other.

due to few different things including part of the guidelines, I can’t say anything apart from what was said with no malice intended completely bombed. No matter what I said I’m wrong. This having sent my mind into spiral of asking why, searching for answers that will most likely never come

id like to know bit more about the dragon, if that’s ok with you eg cartoon or more mythical, standing or flying. Is 100%;ok if prefer not to share

it’s actually 8 kittens in a basket. I’ve attached photo from an info sheet. Thoroughly frustrates me when I make any mistakes and I get annoyed with myself. depending how big a mistake, I have been known to get angry with myself which is when I know I need to pack up whatever I’m doing and put it away.

At some stage, I need to work on my brick bears getting them back together, needing to superglue areas as I go. Currently have 2 brick bears that atm are in mixture of different sized pieces due to breaking apart when they landed on the floor. Not in right frame of mind to work on them.

i did take couple small LEGO items plus my smallest brick bears (which has had super glue applied already) to my last psychologist appointment. Brick bear got lots of interest with psychologist asking lots of questions. I saw a different side of my psychologist that day, I side I like.

I get bored after working on one item for awhile hence have variety of started craft items. Think I’m not far from finishing a diamond art of (no surprise for me) cats. Might have a look at that during first couple days home after hospital stay. If all goes well, 7 weeks today will be my first day in hospital. In on Monday, discharged Saturday morning. Due to different questions last time plus people interested, I’m thinking I might do brief daily update each evening

no tears for me today ( been close though), eyes feeling tired and uncomfortable. Time to find some eye drops to help ease the dry eye discomfort.

Thanks for the virtual hugs, much appreciated. Sending virtual hugs to Casper for being such an amazing, caring man.

Things over here have been...okay today. @MissGremlin I woke up with a headache feeling physically flat.

I had an RDO, so get some extra sleep and didn't have to get up at 5 am. Got some house work done this morning. Had a GP appointment and went to the grocery store. My parents dropped off my Mum's old work from home set up. She's retired now and doesn't need it. So now I have a desk and some screens and a chair and a spot to work and study at that's not my kitchen table. Hopefully it'll be more comfortable.

We went out to a local cafe for lunch, then when I came home instead of doing some study I decided to give myself the afternoon off. I started a paint by number and spent a couple of hours doing that while watching Bat Woman.

I have just come back from taking Luna for a big walk.

@NightFury I'll reply to your post in a minute. But would you like to have a cuppa with me sweet?

I would love to have a cuppa with you @MissGremlin I haven't had one since this morning.

We finally get to have one together @NightFury ☺️. I'm going to have an iced coffee, it's warm here today so need something refreshing.

I've made a hazelnut flavoured coffee with my pod machine @MissGremlin

@Flutterbug9 i can honestly relate to everything you just said there sweet. Especially when it comes to wanting to go silent but needing connection. It's hard cos its all so conflicting with each other. Just know for me if I ever don't reply it's only cos i get overwhelmed easily sometimes so have to step back, but I'll do my best to let you know if I have to do that cos i get the feeling of rejection all too well. Also this time of day gets very chaotic here so trying to reply to long posts usually has to wait until I sit down in bed.

I'm going to reply to the rest of this post later as I only have a few minutes before I need to cook dinner and don't want to rush a reply when I care so deeply into typing a thoughtful response to you.

But I am still here, just can only do short posts at the moment whilst I'm in between doing things ☺️.

Casper got very excited when I gave him some hugs from you, he loves cuddles and his whole bum wiggles 😂.

@NightFury ooohhhh yummy 😋. I'm struggling to reply to long posts at the moment, but I will get around to replying soon. Things just get really busy here at this time of day.