Battles

@Chasingsunsets it's ok i get confused when I look at my posts and don't realise it's me first cos of the username 😂.

Haha can't say that I'd be that dedicated to chase after the bin man 😂.

The one I'm going to start is a dragon, I did share a picture of it a little while ago to jynx. The big ones can get a bit much and I often lose focus on them, was enjoying doing the 20×20cm ones but they don't take long to finish.

There's lots going on and things that used to work to regulate or ground me aren't anymore. The diamond art sometimes helps but often i just sit and stare blankly, in those moments I'm unaware I'm doing it.

@MissGremlin hey hun how are things?

Yay you're doing the dragon!! 😍

Hello @Jynx sweet, honestly I'm not doing ok. Things have been so hard with manic then shut down and now going back into a manic (I'm safe). The loss of another niece on Friday has been a huge shock when I still hadn't processed the loss of my other niece in December. There's so much going on and things just keep happening without a chance to catch my breath.

I was about to start the dragon, I sorted out the gems and then Casper decided it was snuggle time so now I'm stuck 😂.

How are you going?

@MissGremlin oh hun that's awful, I'm so sorry for your loss. When it rains... well it is definitely pouring for you hey.

Hugs

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Haha yes I often get 'catted' and cannot do anything until Trixie decides it is time to hop up 😹 but I love snuggle time!

I'm chugging along as per, found some more chains at the op shop today so I am a happy twirly lil camper hahaha 😋

Thankyou @Jynx, it's definitely pouring at the moment. Just trying to take things one second at a time. Thankyou for the hugs, very much needed.

Haha awww so cute, I love snuggle time too. He's moved now so I can finally start my dragon.

Oohhh yay for more chains, last trip to my local op shop had nothing which was disappointing. Might have to try again sometime soon.

Today marks 2 years since I had to say goodbye to my beautiful furbaby Laylah. She was truly my world and my assistance dog, having only 3 years together wasn't long enough. My heart or what's left of it feels like it's breaking all over again 💔. (I'm safe).

As is today wasn't heavy enough, I've just been told that my uncle passed away on Friday, that's the same day my niece passed away 💔😞. Why do bad things keep happening in my life. (I'm safe).

@MissGremlin so many losses... I'm sorry that it keeps hitting so hard hun. With so much grief, I hope you are reducing your to-do lists where you can, reaching out as needed, and engaging in gentle self-care. Have you spoken to Griefline at all? Definitely one to keep handy when you've experienced significant bereavement 💜

Hey @MissGremlin

@Jynx things just keep happening. I had people here today to replace the gutters on the house and when I knew i had to go out i told them that I wasn't comfortable having them here while I wasn't especially with Casper being left home with an injured paw. They'd accepted it and agreed that they would come back tomorrow but then one of them verbally abused me for it. Then when I was out I got a phone call from my land agent who verbally abused me for it aswell. Bearing in mind that these roofing people didn't even give me 24 hours notice, they messaged yesterday morning to say that they would be here in 2 hours, no asking if it was ok to come. I actually said no to yesterday cos I had a migraine which I've still had all today but I accepted that they needed to come out to do the work.

Yes I have the number for griefline but I can't even talk on the phone at the moment. The lady from the mental health team rang me today, I managed to say what had happened with my niece and uncle and then just went into shock, I couldn't talk, I couldn't hear what she said to me, I had to hang up cos it was too much (I'm safe).