Battles

Hello @ENKELI sweetheart, I'm glad you are doing ok but know that I'm always here to listen and offer support whenever I can.

I'm sorry that some have been unkind to you, it hurts me to hear this.

You just brought some light to my week when I saw the notification pop up from you ☺️.

Sending you so much love and hugs beautiful ❤️.

@MissGremlin I am so sorry you're suffering so badly. If I could take the insomnia from you I would.

Do you have any family or friends who you can lean on at the moment? Having hallucinations is scary, I am concerned for you sweetheart xo

@ENKELI I don't have anyone other than friends online to talk to. It's been a really scary time. I tried to get into see my doctor early to get help but I never heard back from him so my appointment isn't until Monday or Tuesday now. It was ok when the hallucinations weren't as bad and I was ok with knowing that they weren't real but now things are worse and they feel real, I try so hard to tell myself that they aren't but I find myself reacting to them now. It's a scary feeling cos I feel like I'm losing myself to this 😞. (I'm safe)

@MissGremlin I see you sitting with other members who seem to constantly need validation and yet you are so patient and kind. But remember, they are not anywhere near as important as you are and you have to make sure you have a safety net for your needs.

I used to get so involved with my ex friend that I neglected myself and I don't want that happening to you darling heart.

Are you able to take over the counter sleep aids? And what about the option of hospital honey? I know that is a last resort but is it something you might need to consider?

We need more Dreamy's in this world, kind caring and loving people who help more than they ever know xoxo.

I'll be around for a while, I've got some study to do but will welcome a break any time! Much loves, hugs and prayers my sweet Dreamy xoxo

@ENKELI this is hard cos I am someone that wants to support others as much as i can and don't expect that to be reciprocated (though it's nice when it is).

This is why I don't have friends around me cos all they seem to want to do is take whatever they can from me while I get nothing in return. I'm too much of a nice person to say no or to ignore someone when they need something which of course results in me being the one hurt.

Nothing over the counter has worked and unfortunately i can't even take medications to help. You don't know how much I wish I could go to hospital but I have noone to help with my house and pets so it's not an option. My counsellor wishes I could be in hospital aswell.

Awww thankyou sweetheart, your words really mean so much to me ❤️.

Hope the studying goes ok for you. I appreciate you and your support so much sweet ❤️.

@MissGremlin yes, this is the problem with people like yourself and me, we are compassionate and put others before us. I have been taken advantage of by people who I thought were friends too.

This is so frustrating that there is no one to help you. Would your son be able to look after your pets and home while you were in hospital? If that's not something you want to discuss please let me know. I know you have family but it sounds like they wouldn't be able to help out.

I think that is one thing in which I am lucky. My mum and brother look after me and I have my best friend, even my aunt.

There needs to be more support where it is needed most. I see support for some groups yet for women over 30 there doesn't seem to be much available and I am looking at writing to both state and federal governments to question why there is no specialised help for that specific demographic.

I feel like my hands are tied and I wish I could come and babysit your pupper for you and look after your home while you had a break.

@ENKELI it's both a blessing and a curse to have such compassion for others.

Unfortunately no my son can't cos of the situation with my mother. I have to be careful what I say on here about it so I think I'll leave it at that.

I'm so glad you have support around you ❤️.

There really does need to be more support out there but unfortunately the system is very much failing there.

Awwww thankyou sweet. It's just a really complicated situation here and with noone that can help physically it means that I just have to try to manage alone (but at least with the support from you and others here).

I'm struggling so much tonight, I can't sleep and haven't had any yet. I've tried so many things to try to wind down and relax but nothing has worked. I've been hallucinating and it feels so real, I'm tired of questioning reality. I'm beyond scared of what's happening to me but my attempts to get help have failed. I just feel so alone right now and I feel like I'm losing myself.

I'm safe for now and laying in bed with Casper but I just don't know what to do.

Hi @MissGremlin how are things sitting for you this morning, my friend?

Hello @NightFury my sweet, I'm really struggling this morning. I've only had an hours sleep, things are really bad (I'm safe for now).

How's things feeling for you sweetheart?