Battles

@Captain24 for me it's hard to say that I've done anything. Like yes I've done dishes, washing etc but to me they are just things that have to be done so I don't feel like they count.

The exhaustion is definitely real, even just replying to a few posts today has taken so much out of me.

I'm glad that you've only had a couple (although having none would be better), they are truly horrible and scary. That's the thing they are exhausting but i can't rest cos I have panic attacks over trying to sleep knowing what's coming during the night. That would have been so hard being away from your dog's and then thinking you'd lost your phone, I'm Sorry you went through that sweetheart.

@Flutterbug9 it's completely ok if you aren't up for catching up on posts sweet. You need to do what's best for you and we will always be here to support you however we can.

It sounds like yesterday was a difficult day sweet, it's hard when something tips everything over the edge of that breaking point. Know that all your thoughts and feelings were and are completely valid. Sending you gentle hugs sweetheart, you're not alone ❤️

I don't want to say too much as it can be triggering so I'll keep it brief. I'm about to be homeless as I can't afford the rent increase my land agent is asking for and there's no support with housing (I've tried every service possible). I've been having severe panic attacks throughout the day/night. Having SI and SH thoughts and urges (I'm safe for now). Not being able to get support for my mental health and even my doctor not knowing what to do to help me anymore. There's just alot happening all at once which makes it incredibly hard to cope without having proper support.

Hope all of that is ok for you to read sweet, please let me know if there's anything you want to talk about further or if anything triggers you.

OMG @MissGremlin. You are totally in the same page as me! It just has to be done! I completely get what you are saying. It’s not as though it’s something eventful just what needed doing. This sounds really bad but that is refreshing to hear. Everyone keeps telling me that it’s a lot bug I don’t see it as no one else is going to do it so I have to. I hope I’m making sense and you don’t feel like I’m degrading what you have done.

it’s ok. If you can’t keep up or can’t respond then that is ok. If you need to rest then go and rest. No one will think less of you if you need to tap out. I can only speak for myself but I’m just glad to know that you are ‘ok’. That you are safe.

It’s all good. It was minor stuff that just built up. Plus I had only been there a couple of days. I had made good friends though and they stayed with me.

I can’t imagine at all what you go through.

@Captain24 it completely makes sense and I'm glad you understand and see it how i do. They are just tasks that have to be done and I'm the only one that can do them so I just do it. I guess it's something that maybe we can both learn to acknowledge, that even doing those "essential tasks" are still accomplishments when we are feeling exhausted.

I'm hoping I can get a bit of rest but at the moment I'm having a panic attack just over the thought of falling asleep and waking up in a panic. It's a vicious cycle and one that has really broken me (I'm safe for now).

Nice to see you @MissGremlin 😊. Pouring you all an iced coffee like this one 😋🥶☺️🫶

@Captain24 @Flutterbug9 @NightFury @AuntGlow @Shaz51 @AlwaysMyself ☕️

Yummm @Chasingsunsets , I will have one of those 😁

@MissGremlin I know you're going through it at the moment beautiful, you're in my thoughts and prayers as always and I hope things turn around for you.

Let me know if there is anything I can do for you xoxo

@MissGremlin would now be a good time to have a cuppa?

@NightFury i just had to head out but I'll be back in about an hour. I'm sorry 😞

All ok @MissGremlin nothing you have mentioned has triggered me.

im so sorry to hear about the housing situation.
Completely understandable the panic attacks and the dark thoughts. Huge amount of stress you are under

dont know if their is something like this where you are who might be able to help and ease one area of concern

I know public housing can have long wait times. Could it be worth contacting them and getting your name on the waiting list? (Unless you have already do so)

please feel free to message you anytime you want to, even if is only to vent.