Battles

Hopefully she adjusts. She was doing really well with them until last night and this morning @MissGremlin. She has to go back in on Wednesday and 5 for a couple of hours of testing and then I get her back home.

It’s good to be all back together. I’m keeping a close eye on her though.

I am going to tag you on my thread later today. I do want you to please look at it as it may just put a smile on your face. It’ll just be some photos. I won’t tag you in anything else though.

Im thinking I might go back to bed an have a quick nap. Mum and dad are coming around at lunchtime.

Do you have any plans for the day?

@Captain24 awww sweet Pix. Hope the testing on Wednesday goes ok.

I'll definitely check it out. Please keep tagging me whenever you want sweet, i really do care and want to support you.

I hope you can get some more rest sweet and that all goes well with your mum and dad coming over later.

I can't say how sorry I am that I haven't been here for you and others, I feel like I've ruined the only good thing I had here and that I've lost the connections and friendships I'd built 😞.

You have lost anything with me. @MissGremlin. I understand that it’s just so hard right now. I don’t really venture far from my thread and feel like I’m letting people down. Now I realise I’m not. Seeing you go through this and not having the capacity to venture far is totally ok, you need to look after yourself first. I get how hard it can be and I have just realised that it’s ok. You haven’t changed anything with me and I now realise I haven’t changed anything with others either.

I am always thinking of you. I will be this afternoon as well. I’m sure you’ll like the pictures, if I get any decent ones!

@Captain24 thankyou sweet. You definitely have never let me down. I look forward to seeing some pictures if you're able to get some.

As for what I'm doing today. I had a phone call to make but the number doesn't work so that's not helpful, I've sent an email though to let them know and hopefully someone will make contact. I did my dishes before, done 2 loads of washing and given Casper a bath.

Thankyou @Chasingsunsets sweet ❤️

Hello @Flutterbug9 sweet, no need to apologise at all, it's completely ok. Thankyou for your support and those hugs, so very appreciated. I've been absent here myself for a few days.

I'm sorry you aren't doing well, being on edge and struggling to deal with emotions is tough. Please know to are always welcome to share anything you want here and I'll listen and support you as much as I can, I care about you sweetheart.

Always thinking about you sweet, I hope today treats you kindly. Sending you love and hugs ❤️.

Mailing a phone call is really hard so well done for that, I’m hoping you are able to answer when they call back. @MissGremlin

That’s quite a bit to get done. I’m impressed. I’ve actually been talking to @Jynx about job lists and things to do. It’s a work in progress me but so far today I have gotten out of bed twice. That’s it and it’s nearly lunch time. That’s really hard for me to admit too. Do you keep doing things or stop in the afternoons?

@Captain24 thankyou sweet.

I've stopped now, my body is completely exhausted and sore. I've been having severe panic attacks throughout the night aswell as during the day so it's taken a toll on me. Tuesday night i woke up 6 times having full on panic attacks, then Wednesday night I only had 2 hours of sleep, the rest of the night was full of panic attacks.

You've done so well to get out of bed twice today sweet, it's ok to have rest days where we do nothing or only the bare minimum.

You have down a lot and that’s ok to stop now. @MissGremlin. For me it’s about being able to say I have done something for the day. My afternoons I don’t usually do anything either. I’m only happy if I have a couple of things ticked off.

The exhaustion is real. The feeling of having nothing left to give.

Im sorry about that panic attacks, I wish I could help with them. I am lucky, I don’t usually get nightmares and I’ve only had a couple of panic attacks. It’s quite a scary experience from what I have had though. I can’t imagine what it would be like. I can understand how exhausting though. I slept for ages after mine. One I had while I was in hospital. I was missing my dogs badly, Jett was only 4 months old, I thought I had lost my phone (it was back in my room) and I just lost it completely. I missed lunch and only woke up for groups. It was my first time in there as well.

I haven’t gotten around to read your posts and catch up with what’s been happening. To be honest, don’t know if I will. Struggling to what to be on the forums at all atm.

im displaying some autistic traits, one being I don’t handle constant changes well. Minor impact is feeling overwhelmed and having no control. Max impact is panic attacks. Yesterday I received email and had couple phone conversations that were giving me good news. Even so, they were my breaking point. Didn’t feel I was crying but had tears streaming down my face and my hands were physically shaking. Another phone call in the afternoon from different firm but associated with the phone in the morning and I remember getting angry on the phone.

if you are ok to do so, is it possible you can share with me, even brief summary, of what’s been happening plus what you trying to deal with currently.

im made a few decisions regarding the forums. One of which is I am aiming at logging in once a week, reading and responding to posts in which I’ve been tagged. I drop into Captains thread as I know I might not get tagged which is 100% fine with me.