Life can be a Pain

@Owlunar

i like what everyone else has written here, i dont think i have anything else to add

i dont think you should stay away from small mistakes

ive hurt others and ive been hurt by others but they work themselves out and if they dont you know to stay away fromt hat thread. everyone has their own life experiences and its not up to you to how other people react to your response.

sending lots of supporting hugs

Thanks @outlander

My mother and sister intentionally misunderstand or have misunderstood what I have said and to cope with this I have walked a way of non-argument and spent years - many years - away from my family of origin - and really - that was the only way I could deal with it

I was so unhappy for days - and yes - I know there is no way I can control over how people will react to what I have written - and I can spend ages writing a post - being really thoughtful

Of course I am not going to tell people who I upset or how - but I don't know what to do about that either - it will work out in time I guess - I know I didn't react openly - that's the only safe way - I hate arguments unless they are accademic arguments

So - there are many people here I care about and there are a few I feel really close to - and I have stopped getting notifications so I am not facing pages of mail that can get out of control - and I plan to spend less time here - and when I am doing whatever my phone often tells me when there is an email - and I can see who has posted recently and for now that seems better -

I never wanted to hurt anyone's feelings - and when I was your age I had problems with my mother as you do but I was able to keep away from home - working, nightschool and other things - my brother and I were into ten-pin bowling tournaments - movies - cycling - anything to keep away from our mother

So this is the long way of saying - you are right and I am not dropping the forums - though it felt like the only thing to do for a while

Thanks Outlander

Dec

no one ever wants to hurt others @Owlunar its not an intentional thing esp on here. everyone just wants to help and sometimes its not what people want to hear..

if your too worried you can alwasy msg Sane or have a chat on the phone/webchat and get some more support that way as well.

im sure itll work out, itll be ok just keep being yourself. we all love you here. just stick to the threads your comfortable with even if its jsut being here

@Shaz51@Zoe7@utopia@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Phoenix_Rising

I would like to thank all of you for saying what I could not - I was not uncaring here but anything I could have said would have only made the situation worse and I did not want that

Through these weeks I have been overwhelmed by the situation - it has not been anyone's failure but my own and I feel deep sorrow it

And each one of you has taken the bits of the puzzle that you have and put it together fairly well

And each one of you has been so thoughtful

Dec

Thanks @utopia

I am okay - I have been having a flare-up with my back pain but hopefully this is passing

Psychologically it all became too much and I had to pull back into my own space - and still - I needed someone or some people to speak on my behalf - that was one incredible relief

Dec

Hugs my awesome friend @Owlunar

Thanks @Shaz51

Let's sing "I'll get by with a little help from my friends" because I will

I had a bad night last night - I found it really hard to sleep - maybe it was my back ache - but it felt a bit chicken-n-eggish - was I feeling overwhelmed which made my back ache or was my back ache causing me to feel overwhelmed

But yes - I do have some awesome friends here

Dec

hugs @Owlunar