Life can be a Pain

I think Shaz has the flu - so sorry about that - you are in a hight risk category I believe so that is not easy at all-- Yes @Owlunar, I will have to tell myself that it will happen all the time now

Thank you @outlander, @Former-Member, @Owlunar

it is sooo good having a good cleaner -- my customers tell me

Hi @Dec, wwhatch ya doing tonight? Glad you had some good home help and the place is tidy. I cleaned up for my visitors on the weekend - its so much nicer tidy. Think there's rain on the way, set off arthritic joints it feels - ouchy, but you know all about that. Have a heatpack on back atm. Dog warming my knees. Watching an oldfavourite *next of kin" (gosh liam neesen is a hunk - didn't realises he waste Irish origin. Those blue eyes. Dream on. Anyway, just popping by to say hi 🙂

Hi everyone else ❤❤❤

Hi @Former-Member

It's Sunday by now and I am up and it's cloudy and I have arthritis too

I have the heater on low but I think I should turn it off but then - I have got chilled a few times lately and I get major pain then

This time of year it hard - I have always found winter hard - all my life - and I tend to feel better after the winter solstice and we have one month to go today - so that is a good thing -

But my son was in prison years ago - and my memories during that time have blurred and I can't remember exactly when whatever happened but the events are etched in my memory and i have had it fairly easy so far this year but it is catching up with me -

There is no way past my memories but to live through them - no matter how fast I run or how far I go I find I have the memories - and they are hard memories and there are so many -

Still I think I am doing better as the years pass - I have been doing better since I found this website

So I thought I would take my grang-daughter for a cruise - I don't know if she will be in it but I will go away for a few weeks anyway

However - I did look up some cruises on the internet and now i have the adverts everytime I look at any kind of site - the vultures circle if we indicate some kind of interest

So anyway - I am intact today soooooooooo

But I am leaving that for now because I am on the internet

Dec

Hi @outlander

I am a slow starter today - but I feel okay - just tired

Yesterday turned into a nightmare in a blink of an eye - one phone call - my pain specialist can't see me this week - she has been ill and has a meeting on Tnursday and I am so tired of people having meetings and are therefore unavailable

The think that freaks me out is my permit - I saw my GP in the afternoon and he said that as I was stable there was no problem with the permit as long as I see the specialist once a year - and that year is months away yet - and if needs be she could authorize it over the phone - but it hasn't come to that yet

Of course she might retire - I have had that one pushed at me - and my medication is working for me now - but the pain clinic is trying to get me to see another doctor and right now it's a case of "If it's not broken why fix it" and I had a terrible day - ooooh - did I ever

I have even had it suggested I could go into Aged Care and I am not prepared to do that - I think there are worse things but I am not ready for that - I can imagine myself becoming depressed there - I would not fit in - it's not for me at all

So - after speaking with my GP I did feel better but for a few hours I felt really anxious -

I undderstand how you feel when you are feeling bad - truly - when things get to me I want them fixed NOW - not when it suits someone else - and I have had my share of hurry-up-and-wait too

But today - in spite of a late start and a damp and gloomy morning I think I am okay

Dec

your entitled to be a slow starter @Owlunar

oh dear thats not quite what you needed now is it
your permit..? not sure what you mean by that unless its the disabled parking permit?
Oooh I really dont like that- if its not broken then why fix it- just because its not broken doesnt mean its not painful.
Arrhh whats your gp going to do about your medications until you see another one?

Aww I dont hink your quite ready for aged care either- as ong as your still abe to do most things yourself then I think your fine- another option is to get a home visit from nurses if need be.. just as another option

yeah I still get the anxious few hours afterwards everytime I see my gp or my nurse for that matter

its really terrible when you cant get things fixed right this seconds either is it... its not the fact that its putting me second but its the fact that I would rather get things sorted before they get worse or its that wait- those thoughts and emotions that dredge up during the wait for something to happen- preferably good

im glad your feeling just abit better- I bet the cold is getting to you abit though- make sure you stay warm

Hi @Former-Member

I am okay today - it just took me a long time to wake up enough to get up - I was tired and kept dropping back into sleep - so I got up around 10.00am I think and I am going to make fried rice for lunch and usually that makes enough for two days

My unit is one of two and no one lives in the one next door - and so there is no heat coming from that side and the sun doesn't shine on the wall or the roof either - so this place can get very cold in winter

So I live the reverse cycle A/C on low during the winter - it's on now but not running - it cuts out when it's warm enough - and I have done this for years - and it makes a difference

The cold gets into my spine and the pain goes up super-high - but I can have injections for the pain and I had one last night and it makes a huge difference. I will be okay for a few days now

Yes - we can looto k after each other this winter - with our SAD - and I always feel better when the solstice comes and passes - I really notice it here - as soon as the days have stretched out a few minutes I notice the sun shining into my bedroom earlier and longer - and when I get up in the morning it shines into my lounge later and longer

Have you noticed that in summer the sun scoots up into the sky like a roto cket and then takes all day to slowly sink into the west while we are baking down here - and when we would like that in winter - the sun struggles to get up - really taking it's time and then shoots down to the west really fast - really pesky sun at times

My son went into prison at Easter - and that's when things start getting hard for me - but the dates a fuzzy now - until he died - but I remember everything that happened in court and with my husband being remote as if he was turned-off in some way - and all the other stuff - yes - it was a life-time ago and it does get easier but I still have my moments - and writing in the Forum helps a lot too

I know you have had similar losses - I understand

I will travel anyway - I am thinking of going away in July - and it will be July really soon - I know this - and I plan to go local - I was at Lakes Entrance a few weeks ago and I think I will go back there

Thanks Lapses

Dec