Life can be a Pain

@Owlunar

Hey @BlueBay yes Darwin will still be hot during the day in May, and compared to down south the nights will feel warm too, tho' a little cooler than other times of year to the locals.

Hi Peeps

I am just about to dash out again so this is a quick post

I had an MRI today and I need to make an appointment to see a different psychologist to prove I am stable - and I know I am so this shouldn't be a big deal - I have a plan with Medicare -

Also I am seeing my dentist to get a clip on my upper partial - that's Wednesday - I have to go to the dentist first thing for impressions then leave my upper there for the day and return late afternoon to pick them up - I do not like not having my upper partial in so I will not be seeing anyone all day - just not happening

I need a hair cut too - sheesh - everything is happening at once

So I am seeing my doctor this afternoon - back later

Dec

Hi @Owlunar

Who do you have to prove you are stable to? Sorry a bit confused by this.

I can certainly imagine you not wanting to see people without your upper partial and hope that is done quickly for you.

Hope everything went okay with your doctor.

Hi @Zoe7

I really thought - way back in history - that leaving my teeth at the dentist and having them filled to be picked up later in the day could work

And now that can happen except the actuality is different - I have to leave them there to have them relined or to get a clip this time - aw - it's not my idea of a good look to not have my upper partial in place but they will be firmer with a new clip

About needing to prove I am stable - long story - I have decided to get another opinion about my back pain as the pain specialist at the clinic I used to attend is convinced that I am still in a bad place about my son and - egad - this makes my pain worse. I can't work that out because my spinal pain started many years after my son died.

So I am seeing a new therapist to talk to - hopefully to understand that thinking and to prove I am stable as I said. The pain clinic was supposed to organise a therapist but that fell through unfortunately. All of that is just huge pity because I was well-treated for many years

I'm not knocking anyone there - just misfortunate series of events. The private system is expensive but I think it will be better for me

Thanks Zoe

Dec

That makes more sense now @Owlunar Thanks for explaining

A second opinion is probably a good idea then - not everything is trauma related - sometimes pain is just pain ...and sometimes we need help to get through that pain and no 'talking' about other issues will resolve that.

It will also be good for you to have your teeth fixed and that will make them firmer. You'll feel like a new woman

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Hi everyone

I got the results of my MRI this afternoon - and - oh dear - the damage in my spine is progressing. The MRI doctor suggested I be referred to a neuro-surgeon which I don't think is necessary because I do not want surgery - instead I will be going along to the new pain specialist earlier than I thought for pain management. It seems more sensible me as this condition can really only be managed and not cured

It's a shock though - finding things are getting worse - I hadn't thought much about it in reality - this weekend I will be but I am pretty sure I will continue with pain management

Another thing - it feels really bad that I saw my previous pain specialist who didn't want to talk about the pain - just alter my medication - in fact - the whole scenario was ambiguous. It seems the increasingly painful situation was supposed to get better without any examination -

I knew the pain was getting worse - I was blaming the cold weather because everything did feel better in the tropics and it has been uncomfortable since I got home -

The edges of anxiety have been knicking away at my mind - I took a tablet for this - one I normally take for muscle spasms - it's for both - and I do feel a bit better than I did when I got home

I do not feel settled - like everyone else I do not like uncertainty - this was a hard hit though -

It's so good all of you know how wonky we can feel at times - anxiety does stop my appetite but I will have something small and see if I feel like eating the meal I prepare

Not happy Jan

Dec

@Owlunar Not good news at all. I’m so sorry your spine is getting worse, and the pain.

Anxiety does hit hard, affecting everything.

I hope you can manage something small to eat tonight. Sending kind thoughts . 💕💜💕

@Owlunar Hey Dec I have son2 with me chattering away non stop so I cannot read your post atm. I will attempt to read it when he finally gets off to bed. I hope you are doing okay. Love peaxx