Life can be a Pain

It is incredibly sad that you have lost your Companion Cat @Owlunar but as you have said - you could not see it suffer. I do have a lot going on across the week now but am finding times to relax as well. A lot of what I need to get done before tomorrow I have nearly comleted - just need to do the planning paperwork to send off to the principal and print a few things out. I want to get the lawn mowed today as well so will do that later. I am going to forego the pool today - not ideal but I don't feel like it and nt going to push myself today - need the time at home before my full day at work tomorrow. I do need to head to the shop later as well but will probably do that much later today or early tonight when everything else is done.

I hope you find moments today where you can think of all the good times you had with Companion Cat - and if there are tears also that is ok - 15 years is a long time together and you have shared so much of you with her over that time - they certainly fill a space in our heart and that will remain with your memories Dec

My cat seemed to talk a lot too @TAB - amazing that

I guess these will come back - her different meows and yips and chirrups - she was very vocal

Not only that she liked me to read to her - it started when she was a kitten and got between me and my book and the only way I could read was to read aloud and my daughter asked me what my cat liked to read - yes - true - luckily that cat seemed to like exactly what I was reading - she was actually thinking I was talking to her and this went on for most of the time over so many years

They do seem to understand - and who knows - cats are clever and perhaps they do

Dec

You have sorted your week out well @Zoe7 - and taking it easy before busy Friday - well done - good work - and all the best for tomorrow at school

I am incredibly tired today - I made myself some porridge - late breakfast - I feel as if that space in my heart is still full but the house is so empty - there was a creak in the screen door and I thought it was Companion Cat - but no - of course not - that won't happen again but then - I will not be getting up and down to let in her and out several times a day - but I will miss that

There's a lot happening at once - it's overwhelming but I will be okay - I know enough by now that I don't have to enjoy every day - some days - some times - we just get though and this is how it is right now. But I have learned to endure - which increases hope - and our expectations can only be .better from what our past has taught us

Thanks Zoe

Dec

You will hear those little creaks and noises for some time @Owlunar and think it is Companion Cat - they certainly leave their little paw prints on our hearts. I can imagine the house would feel very empty right now - it is a lot to deal with - our pets are very precious to us and losing one is such a huge loss. Lean on us as much as you need to help you get through this Dec - we know what a gap losing a loved one/fur baby can leave.

Mine too @TAB

There is something profoundly other-dimensional about cats - we will never know how much they know - how much they understand - how much they remember

Dec

I can hear those little paws @Zoe7 and I need to lean somewhere - I am having trouble getting the executive parts of my brain working properly and - yeah - the cat took up a huge part of my life - more than if I had a job or a family living here - she was the job - she was the family

I had Chicken Kiev for lunch - when I tossed the crunchy left-overs into the kitchen bin I shoved the bin into the laundry so she couldn't raid the scraps - which is a bad habit she had - then I could leave it until I cleaned up properly - and I broke a glass and while I was clearing that I was worried she might hurt herself if she walked there - aw - not good -

I am just not really holding it together yet I know I will be all right - I am always able to get through stuff - The weekend has a tough date and my daughter needs me next week and I feel metal fatigue could happen - I have to roll with the punches - I can do that

I might have crawled back into my bed but today - no such luck - there has been machinery working around here today - really noisy

I can write it off - not every day has to be brilliant - but as cluttered and untidy as the day has been I have done the washing, cooked dinner even if it was frozen, tidied up the recyling, showered - sorted the airing and fixed the kitchen.

And I feel really empty

Dec

sending you lots of knowing hugs @Owlunar

when ever we had morning tea , we would have cakes and biscuits to share , when we get up to say good bye before putting things away , my little darling would be ther eating the last piece of cake on the table

Yes our fur babies are like our family and job all rolled into one @Owlunar and they take up so much of our lives but that is what we do for them because we love them. Tomorrow will be the first day I have left Toby by hinself for the whole day in over 2 years. I m sure he will be ok - might be me missing him though

Was that date one that would have been your son's birthday? I remember it was close to mine and we would have been around the same age

That makes me smile @Shaz51

Companion Cat was on a restricted diet - (a prescription diet) and not supposed to have treats or snacks and I had to be alert because she would find her own

When she was younger she was a successful mouser and ate her catch - no way could I stop that but it never affected her

But mouse-breath - aw - that has to be experienced to be appreciated - ugh

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