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Life challenges

Life challenges

So I wanted to share a bit about myself and what I'm facing in life.

I've had health issues throughout my life things like arthritis, scoliosis, heart problems etc. Things that have mostly been able to be treated with medications. But last year I was diagnosed with cancer and it's been a hell of a fight ever since. I've undergone several surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation therapy and things were looking ok. But recently I was told that the cancer had spread and I'm probably not going to make it to see my 50th birthday which for me is less than 3 years away.

I haven't got any support around me and this information has been hard for me to process. Whilst I knew my life was on borrowed time it never really sunk in until I was sat down and told the facts.

As you can imagine with everything I've gone through during my life I suffer from mental health issues and recently that's become alot worse. For me I don't want to get to that point where my body is shutting down.

I don't like not being in control but at the moment everything is out of my control, I'm reliant on medical teams, medications, other people trying to work out what the next step is. I'm unsure whether I want to put my body through more chemo or radiation therapy or whether to just let this ride its course. Even doing it it's only going to buy me a little bit more time so is it really worth it or do I just try to enjoy what time I have left.

Anyway that's a bit of my story and what I'm facing. Thanks for reading.

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Thank you @Till23 .

The nurse assured me that I was safe and that she would keep a check on me.

I'm floating on a raft, the ocean is beautiful and peaceful, the calmness of the waves gently crashing on the shore, the sunshine is beaming down brightly making the ocean look sparkly like glitter, there's dolphins playing in the surf. It's beautiful, I wish you could all see it, i feel like I'm surrounded by all of you, thank you for being here with me 💙

@Former-Member @Oaktree @Eve7 @MJG017 @rav3n @Ru-bee @tyme

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@Hopeandlove

Thinking of you tonight.

Pleasant dreams of the ocean and dolphins to you. Hope you are still here tomorrow but if not just know that it’s ok with us if you feel like you need to go. We have been honoured to share this special time with you.

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It is my pleasure to be here with you @Hopeandlove

Sometimes when the conditions are just right and there’s big waves I can hear them at my place.

Sometimes I can see dolphins in the ocean if I go down to the sea side and at the right time of the year you can see whales.

I hope you’ve got your sunscreen on on that raft 🤣

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Thank you @Oaktree . I feel like something is calling me, pulling me closer to it, closer to the light, a place where pain doesn't exist and everything is calm 💙.

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@Hopeandlove

It’s ok to go to the light.

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@Hopeandlove

 

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Thank you @Till23 . The whales play a beautiful tune of their own, you can hear it from the deep of the ocean 💙.

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It’s a privilege to be here with you @Hopeandlove Actually my Mum went there just 3 weeks ago and I know she is now pain free and at peace.

Grab onto a dolphin 🐬 when the time comes.

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I will be back near the water tomorrow morning @Hopeandlove

I wish I had time to weave you a little raft, to float out tomorrow

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Thank you all for being here. My eyes are heavy, I'm going to close them, just for a moment, just a little rest 💙

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