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Life challenges

Life challenges

So I wanted to share a bit about myself and what I'm facing in life.

I've had health issues throughout my life things like arthritis, scoliosis, heart problems etc. Things that have mostly been able to be treated with medications. But last year I was diagnosed with cancer and it's been a hell of a fight ever since. I've undergone several surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation therapy and things were looking ok. But recently I was told that the cancer had spread and I'm probably not going to make it to see my 50th birthday which for me is less than 3 years away.

I haven't got any support around me and this information has been hard for me to process. Whilst I knew my life was on borrowed time it never really sunk in until I was sat down and told the facts.

As you can imagine with everything I've gone through during my life I suffer from mental health issues and recently that's become alot worse. For me I don't want to get to that point where my body is shutting down.

I don't like not being in control but at the moment everything is out of my control, I'm reliant on medical teams, medications, other people trying to work out what the next step is. I'm unsure whether I want to put my body through more chemo or radiation therapy or whether to just let this ride its course. Even doing it it's only going to buy me a little bit more time so is it really worth it or do I just try to enjoy what time I have left.

Anyway that's a bit of my story and what I'm facing. Thanks for reading.

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@Former-Member when I closed my eyes I imagined myself waking in amongst the trees with the birds flying past me. I tried to take as much in as I could 💙.

Doing gardening in the backyard sounds enjoyable 💙.

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@Till23 I will treasure today, not knowing when or if I may get that chance again.

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Hi @Hopeandlove

Hopefully, soaking up some sun today will help you sleep better tonight.

If not, instead of soaring like a majestic eagle, imagine yourself as water. Picture yourself as a wave, rolling gently toward the shore, then washing over warm tropical sand before retreating back into the ocean. Feel the sun’s warmth on your surface, the sand beneath you, and the salty breeze in the air. Now, drift into the deep, where darkness surrounds you, only to rise again, breaking through the water’s surface as sunlight sparkles all around. Float peacefully, weightless and free - completely at one with the ocean.

 

Hugs,
Snuggles 🐬🦭

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Thank you @Former-Member what you have described is what i will imagine tonight when I try to drift off to sleep. 💙.

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@Hopeandlove

It must have been so amazing to get out into the sunshine ans see and feel the nature around you. Even the butterfly joined in and came to say hello by the sounds of it. How thoughtful of the nurse to bring you the rose. They really are a special group of people. It sounds like you are in very good hands with them.

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@Hopeandlove

That outing sounded wonderful!

I tried to create a picture of it but chat gpt wasn’t having it. You will have to relive it just in your memory. So glad that the Nurses got you outside for a little while.

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I really hope you get that opportunity again @Hopeandlove

@Former-Member has described a nice scene for you. The dolphins and fish could also be moving through the ocean with you and when you break the surface you could see the crabs scuttling across the beach avoiding the pecks of the flock of seagulls. The dogs on the beach could be frolicking in the little waves breaking on the beach

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@MJG017 they have been so understanding and made the outing special for me. The butterfly topped off the trip outside 💙

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@Till23 it would be nice go outside again. It was only a short visit out there as my heart rate and oxygen levels began to drop so they had to get me back in.

I love those extra details and I will add them in when I am thinking of that scene tonight, thank you 💙.

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Thank you @Oaktree. I am treasuring the memories of the outing today, it was truly beautiful 💙

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