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Life challenges

Life challenges

So I wanted to share a bit about myself and what I'm facing in life.

I've had health issues throughout my life things like arthritis, scoliosis, heart problems etc. Things that have mostly been able to be treated with medications. But last year I was diagnosed with cancer and it's been a hell of a fight ever since. I've undergone several surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation therapy and things were looking ok. But recently I was told that the cancer had spread and I'm probably not going to make it to see my 50th birthday which for me is less than 3 years away.

I haven't got any support around me and this information has been hard for me to process. Whilst I knew my life was on borrowed time it never really sunk in until I was sat down and told the facts.

As you can imagine with everything I've gone through during my life I suffer from mental health issues and recently that's become alot worse. For me I don't want to get to that point where my body is shutting down.

I don't like not being in control but at the moment everything is out of my control, I'm reliant on medical teams, medications, other people trying to work out what the next step is. I'm unsure whether I want to put my body through more chemo or radiation therapy or whether to just let this ride its course. Even doing it it's only going to buy me a little bit more time so is it really worth it or do I just try to enjoy what time I have left.

Anyway that's a bit of my story and what I'm facing. Thanks for reading.

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So happy to hear from you @Hopeandlove

Not happy to hear you were in pain, I hope the staff can get on top of that

Also really happy for you to be taken into the sun, that will be lovely to feel the sun shining on your skin. Hopefully to see and hear some birds.

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@Till23 the nurses were quick to get on top of it so it's only a dull pain left.

They are going to take me out shortly, I'm excited for it 💙.

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Sounds great @Hopeandlove ,

We look forward to hearing how your time out goes for you 🙂

Tell us what you hear, feel, smell, taste and hear 🙂

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I’m excited for you @Hopeandlove I have been lucky to be out in nature today even though it was a 14km trip, under my own steam, so pretty tiring.

Having a cup of tea and a rest now.

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@Hopeandlove

Autumn is my favorite season, I love the fiery colors and the crisp, fresh air.

I can't wait to hear all about your little adventure in nature. That’s how I picture it, somewhere you can fully immerse yourself, taking in all the sights, sounds, and scents around you. Soak it all in and enjoy!

Hugs,
Snuggles ❤️

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Outside was beautiful, the sun was warm and made everything around glow, the trees rustled with the wind gently blowing through them, the birds were chirping their sweet tunes, a butterfly flew past me dancing in the breeze. The nurse took my oxygen off for a short time so i could breathe in the fresh air and we found a rose, she brought it to me so I could smell it, it had a sweet aromatic smell. I closed my eyes and I took everything in, you were all right beside me 💙.

@tyme @Till23 @MJG017 @Former-Member @Oaktree @Ru-bee @rav3n

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That sounds so beautiful @Hopeandlove I am so glad you had the opportunity when you were well enough to notice all those things.
It’s lovely when you can enjoy nature even if it’s a sliver here and there.

I got to smell the salt air today and also feel it, sometimes not exactly the way I would have preferred but still🤣

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@Till23 It was a beautiful experience and I'm thankful to the nurses for making it happen.

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@Hopeandlove

That sounds like such a peaceful and beautiful moment. I’m so glad you got to experience the warmth of the sun, the scent of the rose, and the fresh air. It’s the little things isn't it?

I spent most of the afternoon in the backyard gardening which was really peaceful.

Snuggles ☺️🦋🌹

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Hopefully you can do

it again @Hopeandlove

Sometimes the little joys in life are the most cherished. I feel like you’ve helped me to really understand that

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