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Life challenges

Life challenges

So I wanted to share a bit about myself and what I'm facing in life.

I've had health issues throughout my life things like arthritis, scoliosis, heart problems etc. Things that have mostly been able to be treated with medications. But last year I was diagnosed with cancer and it's been a hell of a fight ever since. I've undergone several surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation therapy and things were looking ok. But recently I was told that the cancer had spread and I'm probably not going to make it to see my 50th birthday which for me is less than 3 years away.

I haven't got any support around me and this information has been hard for me to process. Whilst I knew my life was on borrowed time it never really sunk in until I was sat down and told the facts.

As you can imagine with everything I've gone through during my life I suffer from mental health issues and recently that's become alot worse. For me I don't want to get to that point where my body is shutting down.

I don't like not being in control but at the moment everything is out of my control, I'm reliant on medical teams, medications, other people trying to work out what the next step is. I'm unsure whether I want to put my body through more chemo or radiation therapy or whether to just let this ride its course. Even doing it it's only going to buy me a little bit more time so is it really worth it or do I just try to enjoy what time I have left.

Anyway that's a bit of my story and what I'm facing. Thanks for reading.

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Hi @Till23. the rest was nice, I'm still very sleepy. The pain is dull and I can tolerate it.

I love thunderstorms, listening to the rumbles of the thunder, watching the lightning and hearing the rain fall on the tin roof 💙.

It sounds beautiful where you are, magpies are lovely to listen to.

Your dog sounds so loved, getting treats for being such a good boy when he had his bath, now snoozing feeling nice and refreshed.

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Heya @Hopeandlove

I’m so glad you’ve been able to get some rest and that your pain has eased, even if just a little.

It’s been incredibly hot here as well, so I wouldn’t be surprised if a storm rolls in soon. Like u and @Till23, I love storms, especially when I’m tucked up inside

I picked up some interesting books from the library today and I’ve been curled up in bed reading one of them by CJ Cooke. She writes fiction woven with folklore, and this one is based on Icelandic legends.

Thinking of you.

Hugs

Snuggles 💜

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I love thunderstorms @Hopeandlove but my dog is not so keen on them. He is deaf now so it’s much less stressful for him and I when there’s a storm.

I’m so lucky it is beautiful where I live from a nature point of view it’s really nice.

I have a creek behind me so I have lots of dragonflies and the birds can get a drink there, I also have water dragons wandering through my backyard. I think one is living in one of my trees. A possum lives in my garage.

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Hi @Former-Member. I know it's warm outside where I am but it's cold inside. I'm not able to regulate my body temperature so every now and then I get a lovely warm blanket put on me to keep me nice and comfortable.

Glad to hear that you found some good books and those stories sound interesting, enjoy reading.

Thank you 💙

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@Till23 thunderstorms can be scary for dogs but I'm glad he is more settled now even if it is due to him being deaf now.

I'm imagining your surroundings by what you are describing and I think it will be another one of my scenes that I picture to escape reality. It sounds so beautiful and tranquil 💙

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@Hopeandlove

Thankyou for your bravery and your input here at Sane. I just wanted to say that I will see you on the other side of life. Go well hun x

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Thank you @Oaktree . I hope that I won't see you on that other side of life for a long time though. 💙

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@Hopeandlove

I hope so too.

Thank you x

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Hi @Till23 and @Hopeandlove

How delightful to have a possum living in your garage! I just love possums, they’re such little rascals. It makes me think of The Wind in the Willows, one of my all-time favorite books. I can just imagine your dear possum snuggled up somewhere warm, wrapped in a cozy dressing gown and slippers. After all, Ratty, Mole, and Mr Badger spent plenty of time in front of a crackling fire, dressed just the same. 😊

And your dog sounds absolutely adorable too. May I say what a charming little household you have!

Any favourite books?

@Till23 @Hopeandlove

Love

Snuggles 🫠

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@Hopeandlove @Till23 @Former-Member @Oaktree @rav3n @tyme

I love a good storm as well. Sitting outside with the sound of the rain pelting down and the sky lighting up is somehow so comforting. My favorite go to ola e though is lying down looking up at a bit dark night sky, just staring at all the stars. Thinking about the distances and sizes and how all those little points of light I'm looking at is really how they looked years, to 1000s of years ago. I used to do it a lot as a kid and it's always what I think about when I get stressed, upset, or overwhelmed. There's just something about looking up at the universe that made me feel like I had a place I belonged... far more than anywhere I ever felt here on Earth.

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