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Life challenges

Life challenges

So I wanted to share a bit about myself and what I'm facing in life.

I've had health issues throughout my life things like arthritis, scoliosis, heart problems etc. Things that have mostly been able to be treated with medications. But last year I was diagnosed with cancer and it's been a hell of a fight ever since. I've undergone several surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation therapy and things were looking ok. But recently I was told that the cancer had spread and I'm probably not going to make it to see my 50th birthday which for me is less than 3 years away.

I haven't got any support around me and this information has been hard for me to process. Whilst I knew my life was on borrowed time it never really sunk in until I was sat down and told the facts.

As you can imagine with everything I've gone through during my life I suffer from mental health issues and recently that's become alot worse. For me I don't want to get to that point where my body is shutting down.

I don't like not being in control but at the moment everything is out of my control, I'm reliant on medical teams, medications, other people trying to work out what the next step is. I'm unsure whether I want to put my body through more chemo or radiation therapy or whether to just let this ride its course. Even doing it it's only going to buy me a little bit more time so is it really worth it or do I just try to enjoy what time I have left.

Anyway that's a bit of my story and what I'm facing. Thanks for reading.

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You're right @Till23 about others getting something out of a two way chat. Very true.

@Hopeandlove , are you feeling slightly better with the IV in?

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@Till23 thank you.

I hope you have a good night too 💙

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@tyme the IV is still holding up but every now and then is being temperamental and they have to adjust it slightly. The pain relief they gave me through it has taken the edge off the pain so I'm a bit more comfortable at the moment.

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Glad you feel a little more comfy. You are such a battler... Good on you mate @Hopeandlove

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Thank you @tyme . I better try to get some sleep, this is actually the longest I've been able to stay awake for over the past several days.

I hope you have a good night, thanks for chatting to me 💙.

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Well @Hopeandlove I was walking anyhow so I might as well raise some money for causes I think are worthwhile.

phone cameras are very good these days.

It has been shown that people who just look at nature photos have better outcomes than those who just look at usual hospital surrounds.

So maybe Google some nature scenes on your phone

Yeah I haven’t played Wordle for a fair while

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Rest up my dear @Hopeandlove

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@Till23 that's truly amazing, you should be proud of your efforts and supporting great charities. Thank you for everything you have done for them.

I've been looking at pictures on google, lucky there is an endless supply of pictures. I'm also on some groups on Facebook that share nature pictures. I try to imagine myself being in nature rather than being stuck on a hospital bed, laying in the grass staring up at the clouds or the stars in the night sky, listening to birds chirping and the trees rustling in the wind.

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@Hopeandlove that’s brilliant you have created a little haven of nature bliss for yourself. More resilience.

I love listening to the wind in the trees, it’s second only to crashing waves in my favourite sounds.

I also love listening to birds my favourite is “my” magpies in my yard.

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@Till23 anything to escape reality. Growing up with parents screaming at me and them fighting with each other I had to find ways to drown the noise out. So I turned to my imagination. I have several scenes that I like to imagine, being in the jungle, at the beach with waves crashing, in Africa with the roars of lions around me etc. It's become a coping mechanism when things get too much for me and I need to escape it all.

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