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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Why can’t I pretend the pain isn’t real, maybe if I tell myself I’m okay and I don’t struggle with mental health I’ll be okay. Maybe if I tell myself that the traumatic memories aren’t real, then I can finally feel whole and less gross. Maybe I’ll just wake up from this dream soon and I’ll find peace within my mind when I do wake up. Maybe I’m okay, maybe there isn’t anything wrong with me
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JynxModerator
Yeah very turvy topsy wiggety whack kinda day hey @creative_writer! OUR ROUTIIIINNESSS NOOOOOO 🤣
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer Wow, a doozy of a day! Did your sister's cleanser emergency come with a hearty dose of emotional labour on your part? Ach that sucks about the body flashbacks darlin, hope you're able to be super gentle with your bod tonight. Gentle stretches always good!
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
@Jynx I had a GP appointment, and the chemist is right next to the clinic. When I was at the clinic I was like why not buy some lavender scented hand and body wash, I was already there. Though they were 1 litre bottles, so not exactly lightweight. I went with the intention of buying cleanser, but came out with 2 one litre bottles along with it.
It’s been hours, my body still feels odd. My body isn’t over feeling it yet.
Maybe I should see how things go with therapy, but I do feel pressurised in healing in 10 sessions. 10 sessions is all you get from Medicare. The gap fees are already expensive enough, and my private health insurance cover is not high enough to cover psychology
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer aye the 10 session limit is absolutely ridiculous. Ugh.
But maybe if you see it as 'trying to heal in 10 sessions', that might put pressure on you to try to force your progress... Maybe look at it like 'let's see what we can uncover within these 10 sessions' or something.
I also was thinking about your post from the other day - you could always let your new therapist know all of these concerns up front? Like literally say 'I am feeling really nervous, I really just want you to like me but I've also had so many experiences in therapy that have meant this whole process just feels completely overwhelming.' It gives them lots of info and a starting point to building that sense of trust and safety
Just in case, I will say night night now - mayhaps catch you tomorrow? 💜
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer yeah I think I only get like $90 back from my $270 psych sessions, it's soooo ridiculous. Totally makes therapy affordable, thanks medicare!! SMH. If it weren't for the fact that she's a) REALLY GOOD and challenges me in all the right ways, and b) has very similar spiritual ideology (which is sooo important for me) I'd have ditched her after two sessions.
Yeah I totally feel you. I think where I've landed is like... therapy can be both a way to work through the heavy stuff, and a way for me to continue working on my personal and spiritual development. When it's the former, I might increase frequency of sessions, when it's the latter, greatly decrease or cease altogether for a time.
Yeah I'd say if she's a specialist in ND issues too she'd be suuuper understanding and all too familiar!! Be a helpful spot to start mayhap 😊
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
Ugh it's true hey @creative_writer psychs gotta eat too, this price gouging is literally so horrendous.
Yeah I'm sure you can make the most of the time!! You might be surprised by how much you can uncover in 10 sessions!
Having that specialist knowledge sounds like it will be super valuable too!
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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