FORUMS

Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.

  • 47,612Members
  • 1,358,869Posts
  • 1,400,000Visitors
Something’s not right

Don’t want to accept the pain

Don’t want to accept the pain

Why can’t I pretend the pain isn’t real, maybe if I tell myself I’m okay and I don’t struggle with mental health I’ll be okay. Maybe if I tell myself that the traumatic memories aren’t real, then I can finally feel whole and less gross. Maybe I’ll just wake up from this dream soon and I’ll find peace within my mind when I do wake up. Maybe I’m okay, maybe there isn’t anything wrong with me

906 replies

701 - 710 of 906
1...707172...91

In response to: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

i hear you @creative_writer the overseas aspect does make it harder.

aww i get that. my age gap with my younger sis is smaller, like 3.5 but still, she's always got my heart. even when she's a brat hehe.

i think being a big sis, and her knowing your MH to some extent will maybe encourage her to lean on you too when things get heavy. she's lucky to have you.

In response to: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

@Jynx it is very true the media focuses a lot on compulsions. I’m not saying I don’t have compulsions, but I think my intrusive thoughts are more disruptive. I’ve had disruptive intrusive thoughts since I was in school. It hasn’t always been the same type.

There is a lot of taboo around MH, it does make it hard to discuss the thoughts. However, germaphobia has sort of become normalised among my immediate family and some extended family. Plenty of my relatives won’t even bat an eye for me sanitising and wiping.

@rav3n my younger sister will always be a baby for me and she knows that. She hates being treated like a baby. They say adolescence is until 25, and she is below 25. She has the youth mindset. I’m old by comparison. I do think she is more likely to lean to me than I am

In response to: Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

I don’t even know how to say this on the forums, I don’t want to open anyone’s wounds.

OCD is rearing its ugly head. It’s hard for me. I come from a conservative Muslim background. I have never dated, never been in a relationship. Yet, I’ve had unwanted experiences. It doesn’t feel right. I stay quiet a lot to protect others, but I’m tired

In response to: Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

@creative_writer you deserve to be heard. i can hear how the OCD side of things makes it hard to let go of those thoughts. but even when the negative thoughts keep popping up, know that it doesn't make it any truer.

you did not deserve what happened to you. you are still just as worthy before and now. sending you healing energy 💜

In response to: Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

@rav3n it is hard. The thoughts can get so loud, even though I know on a logical level the thoughts are true. But I think I’ve been feeling so lonely. Lonely struggles are hard

In response to: Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

I am absolutely shattered, I’ve been so anxious lately

In response to: Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Anything you wanna get off ya chest @creative_writer ?

In response to: Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

@Jynx I thought things were easing up, but I’ve noticed anxiety peaking up again, I am suspecting a link between this anxiety and bipolar. Sometimes I get nervous energy, I don’t know how it happens but it does. On top of that I can’t help but ruminate over messing up an interview. I have been very anxious in general, so performing well is difficult

In response to: Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

@creative_writer oh that sucks about the interview. I wonder if it's worth taking the time to reflect on the parts of it you thought went well, as well as the parts you felt you messed up?

In response to: Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

Re: Don’t want to accept the pain

@Jynx I know interviews are a learning process. I sort of wish my mind could cooperate with me so it would be so much easier to concentrate.

I’ll take PRN tonight, I hope it’ll be enough to settle me, I don’t know what else to do
701 - 710 of 906
1...707172...91