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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Why can’t I pretend the pain isn’t real, maybe if I tell myself I’m okay and I don’t struggle with mental health I’ll be okay. Maybe if I tell myself that the traumatic memories aren’t real, then I can finally feel whole and less gross. Maybe I’ll just wake up from this dream soon and I’ll find peace within my mind when I do wake up. Maybe I’m okay, maybe there isn’t anything wrong with me
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer lol have I made my 'half-joking' claim to you about the fact that I think the entire DSM should be thrown out and replaced with a manual on "Differing ways the brain responds to trauma"?
Honestly there's a part of me that wonders how helpful it is for us to go ahead and ensure every single one of our behaviours falls into one category or the other.
But I digress, cos the main point is that what you're facing is super challenging!! Regardless of the instigating factors/cause, it's still gotta be scary!!
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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tymeModerator
Never heard of having matcha and saffron. How do you drink your matcha? With milk? @creative_writer
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer yep totally, that's the whole shebang of 'the body keeps the score' ay, the ways we can store emotions in the body!!
Ugh tell me about it!! The imposter syndrome is so real, like I wanna seek my ASD diagnosis and even though I reckon it'll be fine, there's that part of me like 'what if I get some stigmatising poophead who wants to tell me that since I'm not like, obsessed with trains, I must be NT.
omg you can do it!! RESIST!! Quick, find another source of dopamine.... ummmm ice cream! No wait, a hot choccie cos it's cold lol
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer it's fully like that hey, like the whole 'Oh but you can make eye contact!' thing!
Literally only in recent years have I actually kinda allowed myself to let my eyes go where they wanna, and wouldn't you know it, I DO find eye contact super uncomfortable!! Turns out I didn't even realise I was masking 😣🙃😅
Like imagine if I'd gone in for diagnosis years ago, with my well-trained eye contact and like, not just openly carrying stim toys with me everywhere 🤔 What's the bet I would've been told I was just anxious or some crap...
Like DUH of course I'm anxious when I'm literally forcing myself to perform 'normal' to you!
omg same lol I literally have like 3 tubes of toothpaste atm but continuously forgetting to buy more soap 🤣
Do you need me to tell you off for browsing online shops when you're trying to manage mania 😝
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer at some point I feel like we should both do our homework and read this book 🤣
Like a mixed episode maybe? My friend used to tell me she reckoned those were the most dangerous, cos she had the ideation from the depression, plus more motivation to act on it from the hypomania.... Do you have a safety plan/episode or mood tracker that has your indicators for like, oh hey these are my warning signs for heading towards crisis? Might be worth revisiting, even if you're not worried about your safety right now.
Stigma, unfortunately, is still gonna remain as long as people continue to fear the so-called 'mentally ill' instead of listening to the inherent wisdom of lived experience. You know what I see when I look around at this community? Certainly not illness. Not 'crazy'.
No. I see strength, I see hope, I see shared pain becoming less, I see people connecting to each others' inner children, and I see people who are on the very edge of their own sanity, still taking the time to support someone else who is falling off theirs.
Sounds like a potential kindred spirit? Are you still in contact?
One of the lessons I learned as a queer person - if your community shuns you, you find all the other ones been shunned and you make a new community with them! Found family is so important to me, both in concept and in my relationships! You will find yours one day too 🤞
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer aye I see what you mean. Glad you are safe for now. Though they are only fleeting, maybe you could do little bits like making your space safe (put meds/sharps away and stuff like that) and put up a lil reminder like 'Hey, call LL or SCBS before reaching crisis point pls?' or something, cos we know that we are not the smartest cookies when we're in survival mode hey! I hope it doesn't need to get to that point but, in my experience, having the safety net is what ensures I don't need it!
Oh true, yeah nah let's not go hunting down ex-clients and demanding friendship of them shall we?
Sounds like her story really moved you tho, and hey you can take solace in knowing you're definitely not alone in your experiences.
....y'know I'm realising that's probably why so many of my friends have complex mental health. Cos we're all as intense as each other.... Tho I think I am notoriously the most emotionally expressive 😅
Oh bother, I must away!! Thanks for chats tonight, and look after yourself ok hun? Sending hugs! 🫂🫂
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