Life and trauma

@Former-Member Yeah, I totally understand just wanting to get through the day. I know its not easy in any way.

Its good that you're finally getting something to eat, dont forget to look after yourself.

@MJG017 right now looking after myself is such a hard task. I ate 2 cherry tomatoes, a piece of cheese and a piece of cucumber. Maybe I'll get lucky and sleep the day away tomorrow.

@Former-Member I know it probably the last thing on your mind right now to look after yourself physically, but it's important to stay as strong as possible. At least you had 3 of the 5 food groups 😃

Maybe look for the worlds most boring podcast to help you get to sleep tomorrow. Surely someone has done a 10 part series on the history of the napkin! 🥱😴💤

@MJG017 and you've done it again, how do you always manage to make me laugh when I'm feeling so crappy.

I'm laying in bed watching a movie, hoping it will make me sleepy enough to sleep but it's not really working.

@Former-Member I guess I'm just naturally hilarious... or its the sleep deprivation. Im going to go with a bit of both. 😁

Dont watch anything too interesting and good luck getting some sleep.

@MJG017 you just seem to say the right things at the right time to make me laugh. I just can't switch my brain off which is incredibly frustrating. In a way I wish I hadn't left the hospital but I just couldn't stay where I didn't feel wanted.

@Former-MemberWhat made you feel you weren't wanted?

@MJG017 opening up to nurses about how i was feeling and my thoughts and urges only to be shut down.

@Former-Member Oh, thats so disappointing. I'm sorry that happened. I guess they probably deal with it so much that they forget the individual dealing with it. I get that impression with the oncologists ive seen.

@MJG017 I had one nurse that actually showed so much compassion to me and gave me a hug. It just hurt when I had the courage to open up which is not something I usually do only to be shut down.