Life and trauma

@Former-Member Ive noticed with myself over the past few years as Ive had to deal with more and more changes health wise, that desperate need to avoid more change has become harder to deal with. Its like change starts to equate with bad things.

How are you doing this morning? Is there any progress or updates?

@MJG017 exactly right change =bad and scary.

I'm still not doing good, I've had an hours sleep so my head is pounding and they haven't been able to get my heart rate down and it's going into all sorts of funny rhythms. I'm waiting for a ct scan to rule out blood clots but they can't do that until they can get another line in me and that's something they are struggling with cos my veins have given up.

@Former-Membermy partner always has the same issue with getting any needles put in. It always takes a few goes but they get it in eventually, just painful as they keep trying different spots.

Im sorry things are still not improving for you, especially the sleep. I seriously dont know how you ate still awake! They torture people by depriving them of sleep, so i really hope they can do something for you soon. It just can not be helping you at all on top of everything else, and making it so much harder. Not that I need to tell you the obvious. 😟

@MJG017 normally it's easy to get into my veins but not when my heart is doing this. So it's very frustrating but as always they are being amazing in treating me gently and doing the best they can.

It's frustrating cos I keep dozing off but I no sooner do and the alarms all start going off and then I'm awake again. And constantly being in pain isn't helping. I'm beyond the point of being exhausted now but it's at a dangerous point.

@Former-Member I guess falling asleep in hospital is only half the battle... the other half is staying asleep. I remember it being hard enough for me when i was in for 5 days. But doing it going in with so little sleep to begin with, i cant even imagine! It must make exhausted look like pleasantly rested!!

@MJG017 twice I've fallen asleep in the last 30 minutes and both times I've been woken up. I'm just feeling so emotional right now. On the plus side they just managed to get another line into me so now I just have to wait for the ct scan.

@MJG017 ct scan has been done so now it's a waiting game. But just when they thought my heart rate was coming down it's spiked back up again 😞

@Former-Memberhave they told you anything about the heart rate, or are they waiting for more results? I assume it makes sleep.so much harder, not just because of how its making you feel, but because they will be constantly checking you!

Have they said anything about what may happen next if it stays up?

@MJG017 so the scan came back ok and they have tried a couple of different medications to try to bring it down but nothing has worked. They have repeated bloods and I haven't heard back from that yet. Seems to really be a waiting game and just hoping it will drop.

@MJG017 really thought things couldn't get worse but of course they can. I'm sitting here crying like a baby cos I'm just so exhausted and tired of being in pain. Everyone here has had so many phone calls and visitors and I've got noone. I'm sorry that I'm here bothering everyone, it's all I'm good at.