Life and trauma

that's fair, can always come back to it later. are you working on something else instead? or just chilling? @Former-Member

@rav3n at the moment I'm bouncing off the walls having a panic attack. I haven't been able to do any crafts today. I did manage to do dishes and washing though so that's something. My heart rate has spiked so that combined with the panic attack isn't an ideal situation. Almost ready to call 000 but I'm trying so hard to avoid that.

it really sucks to hear that todays been rough for you @Former-Member so sorry you've had to deal with those panic attacks again, and i'm really proud of you for getting the dishes and washing done - definitely a big win for today! i'm here to sit with you hun, and if it does worsen, definitely don't hesitate to call emergency. sending you some calming energy 💙

@rav3n thankyou. I'm trying to see the little wins, especially today. I just want to sit down and relax but my body won't allow me to at the moment. I knew today was going to be rough but I think i underestimated just how rough. Last night I was fully prepared to tackle it but as the day has gone on I've become exhausted trying to keep fighting.

But I'm here and I'm still trying to keep going for as long as I can.

Hey @Former-Member , I'm mindful today is a difficult day. How have you been managing today? What have you been doing to stay well? Sorry if I've missed it if you've posted this elsewhere

@Former-Member

Well done on getting those wins today! Don't hesitate to call if you feel unsafe at all. It's such a tough day for you today, please don't take any chances if you start to have doubts. Of course we're here to help, but there's only so much we can do being online text. So just put your self and your safety first tonight. I know you can do it and get through this.

Hi @tyme . I was doing somewhat ok earlier but as the day has progressed it's become harder and I'm exhausted from fighting. I've done shopping, dishes, washing, watered my gardens and done a tiny section of my diamond art. I'm at a point where I'm struggling now and it's getting intense, I'm fully prepared to have to call 000 as my heart rate has also been high since about 1.30pm so that in combination with SI and SH it's heading down a dangerous path. But I'm still here and I'm still reaching out to crisis services as needed. Been keeping up with the forums as it's been so helpful to have the support and the chats. So I'm still ok for the moment but it's starting to spiral out of control. I'm digging deep to try to find any little bit of strength and hope I can to keep going.

@MJG017

@MJG017 thankyou. I tagged you in the other post to give you an update.

glad you're holding on the best you can @Former-Member hoping those intense feelings ease up soon. i'm just drinking some tea while i sit with you... would've prefer coffee but my sis made it so can't decline! have you had a cuppa?

@rav3n hope you enjoy your tea. I haven't had anything to eat or drink today, feel far too stressed and sick to even try. I just cleaned my bathroom, brushed my teeth and did my hair ready for bed. I managed to do a tiny bit more of my diamond art but I'm shaking so much that it's hard to put them in the right spot. Really trying to avoid hospital but my heart is causing issues and I've almost passed out several times especially when it spikes to over 220bpm. I wish the thoughts would just ease up even if only for a while but if anything they are only getting more intense as the night is going on.