Life and trauma

@MJG017 thankyou. I have no debt now at all which is great. And I also don't have that constant reminder of the ex cos of it.

I can't splash out as that money will just be used now to stay out of debt so I'll keep paying the same amounts that I was to avoid that happening. I'll just have to settle for my happy dance, although I did buy myself a new colouring book and some textas.

Phone calls suck but I know it should be relatively quick, it's just the anxiety of getting someone that i can't understand more than anything. I'd rather rip off a hundred bandaids than make 1 phone call 😂😂😂.

How are you going? Been up to much?

@Former-Member

The splash out doesn't need to be huge. The new colouring book and textas seem like a very fitting little splish splash 😁

It's the anxiety of having to make the call that i hate. I keep putting them off because of it and that just causes than anxiety to get higher and higher. It's always felt so crazy but well, i guess if the shoe fits... 🤣

I just been having quiet days. Some days the thoughts are harder to ignore than others and rather than try to ignore them now, i find it better if I just do what I feel i need to. If that is sit at home, sulk a bit, and play with a cat, then that is what I'll do. we all do what we can to get through each day. I'm sure I don't need to tell you what that's like. Nor the feeling isolation it causes. I did buy myself a new lego kit to cheer myself up, so that helps 😃 Well, I say 'lego' but its one of these new faux-lego brands. It's pretty hard to tell the difference actually. You can, just... but it's very close.

I'm getting there. It's a Dodge Viper if you're curious. 1236 pieces for $70. A really good price compared to what a similarly sized Lego kit would cost.

@MJG017 it was just a little treat for myself. And it's not like I don't already have enough or anything 😂.

Yeah the anxiety sucks and the longer you put it off the worse it gets. Hopefully i can do it tomorrow but it may also have to wait until Friday or next week 😂.

Very true that we just have to take each day as it comes and do what we can to get through. Always here if you need to chat or need a distraction.

I'll have to wait for the photo elves so I can see it. But it sounds cool.

@MJG017 ooohhh that looks awesome. You will have to put a picture up of it finished 😊.

@MJG017 you around for a chat?

@Former-Member

Yeah, im still up. What do you want to chat about?

@MJG017 I'm kind of freaking out a bit. I took my tablet for the night and I suddenly started to struggle to breathe then the dizziness started and I feel all shaky inside.

@Former-Member

I would suggest you call someone medical

@Former-Member

Has anything like this happened before after taking it? I know i have a 24hr nurse service i can call if i have any issues with my treatments. Is there a similar thing yiu could call to ask about it. Like Health Direct for example? Yes, i know its a phone call, but it may reduce the stress a bit if you got some professional advice.

@Oaktree I'm working on it.

@MJG017 I'm trying to get the courage to make the phone call but that's not coming easily. This has never happened before after taking them.