Life and trauma

@MJG017 I've only screamed a couple of times with spiders but I'm the only one here to deal with them so I don't really have a choice.

@MJG017 ok i gave it my best shot but this is too much for me. I'm sorry. Thanks for always helping me whenever you could.

Hey @Former-Member

I'm sorry to hear tonight has been so difficult for you. I'm wondering if there are things you have done that have helped you when you've felt like this in the past?

It can help to talk through these big feelings with someone, I encourage you to reach out to one of these services if you feel talking it through would help:

Lifeline: 13 11 14

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

I've sent you an email checking in as well. I hope that you take care and stay safe

@MJG017 i can't stay here right now. But I just wanted to let you know that I'm ok to a degree. I'm sorry for letting you and everyone here down. I'm so ashamed of what I've done and how I am right now.

I hope you have a good day and I'm sorry again.

@Former-Member

I'm glad glad you're ok. I was really worried about you last night. I can't speak for anyone else, although I'm sure they'll all agree that you haven't let anyone down and have nothing to be ashamed about. It's all about helping you and supporting you trying to get into a better place.

Thanks for letting me know and i'm never too far away if you want to chat at any time.

@MJG017 thanks. I'm currently sitting at my doctors waiting to be seen. I'm trying hard to not pass out right now. My body is so messed up at the moment in more ways than one.

@MJG017 i made it through my appointment and I have one in a weeks time again. I broke down as soon as I walked in there and he shut the door behind me, I begged him for help and told him how badly I want to just end it all. He has given me medication that's hopefully going to help me sleep and ease the anxiety but there's a risk of it affecting my heart so he wants to keep an eye on that situation. I'm just scared of taking too much, but he seems to have more trust in me than I do myself.

@Former-Member

Fingers crossed this medication works and you can finally get some decent sleep! At least you get to go back in a week, so if its not working you can talk to him about that. How are you feeling after speaking to him?

@MJG017 it felt good to get it out and I know he is on my side. But honestly I'm not sure I can take this medication, I'm freaking out just looking at it cos I'm so worried about taking too much. Why does my brain have to be like this.

Hi @Former-Member

What do you want to chat about?