Life and trauma

@Former-Member

It's great that time seems to have gone a lot faster. It means you've managed to distract yourself for long enough that you feel that time difference. I hope you've managed to keep that up once you got back from the shops.

Thanks. I will go and tell the cats we've talked and we've both agreed their behavior is unacceptable.

Ok, i'm back.

Well, the just walked off again! There's just no getting through to them! 😁

One of the reasons I wnt to the shop was because i ate the last of my strawberries earlier on, so I wanted to get some more and didn't want to wait until tomorrow. I'm really trying to snack on better things recently. Even if just to make me feel better about the slight less health things I eat.

@MJG017

I am trying to eat a bit healthier this year too. I have been having strawberries and bananas in yoghurt. Going to the doctors on the 29 th to have some fluid put in my lap band to help me eat less

@MJG017 i put myself to bed at 7.30. Not that I can sleep cos my thoughts are just all over the place.

Cats never listen, they think the world revolves around them 🤣

Strawberries are yummy and definitely a healthy snack.

@Former-Member

I find even if i cant sleep just lying in bed and acting like im trying to get to sleep, still makes me feel a bit rested, more than if i did anything else. so hopefully your early night helps you a bit, even if a lot of sleep doesnt really come.

@Oaktree

I think my biggest problem with food is not making as many meals at home as I should. Far too much going out for meals, whether its takeout or going to a bistro/pub/restaurant.

Of course, chips doesnt count! I obly have Pt Noarlunga, Semaphore, and Chicken Chef for the fresh cut chips and I need to do my bit to keep them in business! 😁

@MJG017 i no sooner doze off and now I'm awake having a full on panic attack. The thoughts and urges are the strongest I've felt them right now. I can't do this anymore. I give up.

@Former-Member

Hey, it sounds like you're having another really tough night. You have your appointment this afternoon so try to just focus on getting to that right now. You've come too far and fought too hard to give up now.

I know its so difficult at the moment but later today tou could finally be getting that support yiu need to start to improve things. At this point, surely thats worth trying and you just have to stay safe tonight to give yourself that chance.

You know the numbers to call if you need to and dont take any chances this close to that appointment.

Hi @Former-Member

Sounds like it's a really tough time right now.

Just sent you an email. Please reach out to the crisis services if you need to.

Stay safe yeah

@MJG017 it's all just too much though. I'm sick of fighting, sick of the whole minute by minute crap. My heart is struggling cos of the constant panic attacks. My body is in complete overdrive right now and I'm not sure what to even do. But trying to stay in control isn't happening.

@Former-Member

I understand that its so difficult right now, and not surprising after all the time its been going on for. Which is why you need that professional support, now mire than ever. Whether that means holding out for your appointment later today, or calling 000 if you feel you cant do that.

It sounds like you've just reached that point of mental exhaustion and so i think you need to call them now if you feel that control is not going to be there soon. Dont wait until the control is gone.