C-PTSD and Childhood Trauma

Does anyone else have or had the experience of pain not just all over pain. but poison inside as well. I'm wondering if my inability to talk out my trauma is now manifest ING inside my blood system as poisoned blood. Any thoughts anyone? On anything even similar? Thanks in advance. @Jynx @Ru-bee @avant-garde

@Ru-bee

Oh good thank you!

@Ru-bee I think last message was for just? Ended up with another name. But hay I could be wrong

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@Just wrote:

@avant-garde @Jynx @Dimity why is it I see now different people online only 5 min apart but linked to different headings or topics. It's all good just trying to work it out?

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Might just depend which threads or spaces those members are posting/hanging out in!! We got some lil guides and stuff that might help - head to this page and if you're still feeling lost after, feel free to tag me!!

In regards to your concerns about your body being poisoned - it is definitely a thing for trauma to be stored in the body (if you haven't already read it, The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk explains it really well), but I haven't enough anatomy knowledge to say whether it could be affecting your blood! Regardless though, if it is causing you distress, it is probably worth seeking some support for. If talk therapy is itself the trigger, perhaps you could look into some somatic or body-focused therapies? What sort of stuff have you already tried?

@Jynx thanks will look into

@Just

I've been thinking on this and @Jynx mentioned the book that I hear lots about but haven't quite read.

I have *some* insight into the blood thing...

There are occasions where my scars itch or burn, like my body is fighting against my mind, like I need to make it stop, either the reminders or the pain. Yes it's travelled up my arms before or my eyes have suddenly started burning.

I know the seizures I have are a direct result of my mental stress, like my mind says "this is too much for you, I'm shutting down" aka a seizure.

It's a concept called psychosomatic "having physical symptoms but originating from mental or emotional causes"

I know how I stop it for me, I ground myself in this moment or I write.

I've previously been told that it's your body trying to understand or comprehend your experiences. I still get excruciating stomach pains with a particular type of memory, then I dissociate or have a seizure or flashbacks and the pain makes sense.

@avant-garde thanks so much. Yes I will try to ground myself more. I also write a lot. Every morning without fail. I'm at my best in the morning. 🌅 I'm sorry to hear you have seizures with it.are they full blow seizures where you fall to the ground or the type where you can still be talking and even answering questions but in a seizure like state my x- partner had both types. I could tell he wasn't fully present and he would know about it when it stopped because of the metallic taste in his mouth and the need for sleep straight away. You don't have to answer that. It's a very very private thing. I know. I appreciate you.

Hi everyone,

My husband with cptsd reactivity and overreaction to things is breaking my heart.

We had what I thought was an ok time with his parents yesterday but perhaps it was a trigger for him.

Today he overacted at the dog, the kids and I and just screamed at us. I just can't put up with that when he does this and I always stand up and call him out on his behaviour.

It feels like we are a burden to him when he overreacts to situations like this. Then he calms down, but doesn't apologise so he doesn’t model reconciliation or ownership in front of the kids. I always have to be the emotionally responsible one.

Will my children be OK?

My heart breaks. He knows he should do better.

@Jynx @Ru-bee @Shaz51