Seeking help for suicidal thoughts.

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Hi @SteamedToast,

i experience them often as well. I think if you are really worried about them tonight calling your CAT team is a good idea. If you just want to talk about it this is a good place to. I think if you are becoming increasingly worried maybe you decide if you want your parents help or not. Would they be helpful? If yes is the answer to that maybe you could talk to your mental health professionals about how that conversation goes for you. Personally I can't go there with the ones I love. I use lifeline, suicide call back, ocassionally CAT team but if I'm bad I go to A&E at hospital. My son has driven me there and I just told him I was unwell and needed help. He just dropped me off. Also the CAT team has called ambulance before. Personally I've never called 000 before so I'm not sure how that works. I hope this helps.

Hello @SteamedToast

hello and welcome to the forum

my husband has MI and had the same experiences as you and I am his second wife

He has taking himself to hospital because of suicidal thoughts , and was put in contact with his team and the only other contact he wanted was me and his daughter

they have family meetings which only involves who you want in your team , as formy husband he only wanted me there --

so the rest of the family don`t know about the details , not even his mum knows

It is good to have someone to talk to , for my husband it is just me but you have your health team

please let me know if you need to know more my friend

Hello @Former-Member xx

Hi @Shaz51, thanks for sharing your expereinces 🙂

Hi SteamedToast,

I've also suffered from depression and suicidal thoughts for many years. My family have no idea the hell I have endured. I have lost a job, a marriage and several close friends. I was a very strong independent person and never thought I would crumble or have a breakdown. I'm currently dealing with major stress, anxiety and depression and trying very hard to cope without intervention. I decided that life is hard and I've just got to cope. Easier said than done. I've often wondered why life is so hard and why the ones I loved left me. What is wrong with me? These days I'm trying to turn my thinking around because years of anti-depressants and being miserable haven't helped. Some days I start off very positive and things go well but other days I still struggle and the day seems very long and bleak. However, I can't keep looking to others for my happiness and some how you and me have to climb out of this hole and take charge of ourselves. The first step is to keep pushing the black thoughts away. Every time you start to think sad or negative stop yourself. Stand up and do something. Get on the computer and listen to something happy or go and have a shower, walk around the block or clean out a cupboard. Do something physical like digging or sweeping. Anything to distract youself. Life won't change and you'll still be lonely, but you'll have CONTROL of your life. It's okay to be sad and it's okay to be annoyed with your life but we are the only ones who can change things. Today I'm packing up old magazines and books. Why ?? to fill in the day. I've got Willie Nelson and the Highwaymen playing on a DVD and I'm trying very hard to focus on the good stuff. It's not easy and I'd rather crawl under a bed and disappear but I've decided that my life does matter. Others have made me feel worthless by hurting me but I can't keep using that as an excuse. They made their choices and I can't change that. We need to get back to living. Good luck.