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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

My therapist gave me the details for victim support who can arrange for it to be a female that I give the statement to

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Oh thank goodness @avant-garde

ugh...incompetence 😑

How you travelling today anyhow?

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@Jynx

I have a scale

1- I hated today

2 - today sucked

3 - today was too hard

4 - I didn't like today

5 - I survived today

6 - I didn't hate today

7 - I was content today

8 - today was decent

9 - I was happy today

10 - I loved today

Right now probably a 5.5

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Oh I actually love that scale @avant-garde super helpful!

5.5, just a shade higher than average, not bad, bit meh then. Got much on this arvo?

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@Jynx

Just getting creative, finishing a project, watching tv.

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Yeeee nice one @avant-garde I do love me a spot of creativity! Working on anything cool?

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@Jynx diamond dot pencil case at the moment, always have something going, how about you?

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@avant-garde yeah I try to have something on the go all the time!! Last night made this simple lil necklace:

The katana was an earring but they were annoying to wear - kept smackin me in the neck lol. So I pilfered it!

Otherwise been sanding back these lil display/shadow box thingies so I can stain and varnish em!

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@Jynx

Nice!

I like your shirt too

"Tear down the walls of stigma"

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@avant-garde thanks!! Haha it's actually from SANE, they ran a little promotional dealio couple years back, I think for the StigmaWatch program. A message I will always stand by!! 😁

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