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@avant-garde so very true. You are not damaged. You are made perfect in weakness (2 Cor 12:9)

And I have never thought of you as damaged, I should have said those people who tried to damage you.

I hope you have a peaceful night sweetheart xo

@ENKELI

How are you

@avant-garde I am not great. Anxiety is high. I am praying through it. I hope you're okay x

@AuntGlow

My best friend is in hospital... she's like my little sister... she's part of my little family that I've made myself... and I feel like her mum doesn't understand how much she means to me... I don't have a real family and *Jasmine is the closest I've got. She's my oldest and dearest friend and her mum doesn't think it's important to keep me informed! I won't know if she has surgery or how she's doing because I'm just lucky enough she told me this time! Because most of the time they don't.

*name changed

Hello @avant-garde,

Thank you so much for letting me know. I am so sorry your friend is in hospital... this would be really scary for you both. 😔 She sounds incredibly important to you, so of course you care and want to be there for her. Do you think a visit at some stage be possible at all? 💛

@AuntGlow

No, her mum is like a hawk and does not see the point of visitors which really angers me, Jasmine is 31. I'm lucky I even got told!

😔 This sounds really tough... @avant-garde

How are you feeling about everything today? 💛

@AuntGlow

I have Bible study in a while at my pastors place.

TW: SA

I've been listening to sermons and I can't say it's easy

There are no words for the trauma and pain this must have inflicted upon you @avant-garde. No person should ever have to go through this... I really appreciate you sharing this with me, it gives me even more context as to why church can be so painful for you. I am wondering what will help you to feel safe tonight? I am here for you, okay? 💛

@AuntGlow

I have my Bible, it's really beautiful, my dotted notebook where I take notes on one side and draw on the other, they hopefully have hot chocolate, it's a comfort thing and cushions on their couches that I can cling onto. I'll have my necklace, my priceless coin and my fidget ring at least.

I'll sit somewhere I can clearly see the exit.

I'll get there slightly early so I can breathe and pray in my car, like I do for church.

May take my mini calm kit in as well, it fits in my handbag