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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde! 😁

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@Jynx

You're happy to see me...

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@avant-garde pretty much always, yeah 😉

Just read your posts from yesterday. I know I've said this to you before but again I gotta say again, your way with words is powerful.

How are you today anyway? You wanna chat about anything in particular this arvo?

*realises they haven't hugged you yet...does so*

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@Jynx maybe, scratch that, probably after the movie

The Chosen: the last supper (112 minutes)

I snuck KFC in

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@avant-garde ahahaha niiiice!! Enjoy the movie!!

Sneaking KFC would take so much skill now I think about it... like you can smell a KFC from like 3 blocks away! LOL

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@Jynx

The theatre is very full. Remind me to not do weekend's movies.

It'll settle down once the movie starts.

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Aye I bet @avant-garde sooo peopley out there!!

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It's too people-ly outside!

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😦

@avant-garde need like.... a people-proof umbrella or a shield or something!!

I can always run around being a big goober to distract all the people so you can slip away into the night?

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@Jynx or an invisibility cloak!

I'm home safe now, really tired though

Jynx... I'm not too blame for not being able to stop the abusers in my life am I?

There's a part of me that hates myself for not rescuing them... the others like me... for not being enough to stop the abuse...

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