What am I even doing with my life…

@tyme @rav3n @Jynx i now slightly got no motivation to edit my videos/vlogs for the YouTube stuff lol I’m just here restin’

also I’ve been low key thinking about if I can study a certificate of peer work along with a cert of I.T im currently doing, but I know it’s not possible doing two courses at the same time lol it’s just something that came to mind

also, I do low key wanna learn languages by attending a language school but not sure when exactly that’s gonna be. Perhaps ages away or something. I’m tired of having to keep saying to ppl “I don’t understand (this language)” whenever they talk to me in a language I don’t understand just because I look like the same ethnicity as them.. I have people talking to me in both Chinese and Vietnamese and I don’t understand any of that, and I even had people talking to me in Korean when I was in Korea and I don’t understand Korean either except for some basic words and phrases in Korean (plus the alphabet but I can read Hangul)

but the language courses and stuff are expensive for my budget lmao

just some thoughts I have for today ya know

oh yeah please do rest!! the vlog editing can wait @Blackcloud

ooo cool, what made you consider a peer work course?

yikes i get what you mean! my family's from south of india and i know ONE indian language (for context, there's well over 20+ different indian languages). but everyone assumes i'm from the north of india and starts speaking north indian languages like hindi & punjabi to me... i don't understand either of those languages. i sort of want to learn hindi for the reasons you mentioned... but also it would mean i could watch bollywood films without subtitles so another bonus.

have you considered using duolingo to learn some languages?

hi@rav3n i was able to get enough rest but still do need a bit of rest now and its been the 4th day after post-vacation. I have just started editing my very first vlog just 2 hours ago today and im still in the process of editing it and thats gonna be taking...idk how long but i do hope to get that done before the end of this week since im pretty desperate to start officially uploading videos lol

And I havent been feeling motivated to really do anything ever since I came back, and it seems that I might be getting the holiday blues/post-vacation depression.

actually, i dont think i wanna do a peer work course anymore that was just a temporary thing haha! xD

I only wanna learn a language that I really wanna learn. and i find language learning to be more easier if you were to attend some relevant language classes or even a language school in that relevant country. i did look up some korean classes that they have here in melbourne and was lowkey considering it? but im not 100% on it yet so yeah.

@Blackcloud Decisions decisions!! Ach, always tough hey, like why am I always so limited by my time and energyyyyy 😑

Do you think waiting for next year might help? Sometimes I find it really helpful to give myself some time to breathe, a bit of distance from the decision I want to make, and just focus on doing the things that replenish my energy - walking in nature is my fav!

With the language stuff, how do you feel about like, Duolingo and things like that? Could you treat it as more of a hobby for now and decide on a course later?

good to hear you've had some rest!! yeah it takes a bit of time to adjust back from a trip sometimes, did you experience jet lag? @Blackcloud i can see how eager you are for posting!! the editing parts tend to take hours, don't they? hopefully you'll be able to have it done by the week.

do you think you'll want to travel again soon?

haha i get it! i've had those moments where i get excited and inspired to try something and change my mind a few moments later 😆

are you leaning towards learning korean first then? part of my bachelor degree, we had breadth subjects so I picked beginner spanish & french and it was pretty good! especially the spanish one, after 3 weeks of intensive studies I was able to have basic convos and understand a lot. but it did take a LOT of time and commitment, so if you're determined, maybe doing a language course during a holiday break would be good so you can really dedicate your energy into it. if money's an issue though, there are youtube channels out there that can get you started.

hi @rav3n yeah I did experience jet lag within most of the flights I was on except for the last flight (that takes me back to Melbourne) for some reason.. I think I'll definitely be able to travel again soon, only when I'm gonna be more financially stable depending on how hard I'm gonna have to keep up with being consistent with the youtube stuff in terms of filming and editing, uploading and all.

yeah korean is the only language I've always wanted to learn. I did learn the language a little bit like a few times within the past years already and I already know how to read hangul from the alphabet, as well as knowing some words and a few basic phrases so far.

in response to @Jynx 's reply as well along with yours, I appreciate both of your suggestions regarding the duolingo & youtube videos to learn the languages but I did both of those in the past and have found them quite helpful but I didn't find them to be that helpful with long-term learning. Thank you guys for the suggestions though 🙂

Oh wow @Blackcloud so you wanna get stuck into more advanced stuff? That's cool as!! Are you thinking of living over there one day?

@Jynx yep. and yes i was thinking about wanting to live there only for studying and possibly work purposes (if im able to get a job opportunity there in the future but who knows). But in terms of living there permanently and potentially becoming a citizen? nah. i feel like perhaps Singapore or whatever would be the best bet for that but again, who knows xD

I've talked pretty much about it on this following post yesterday as well as the reasons on why i wanted to leave australia to migrate to another country if you wanna have a read :3

https://saneforums.org/t5/Recovery-Club/After-coming-back-from-vacation/m-p/1591979/highlight/true#M112197

@Blackcloud Aww thanks!! Had a lil looksie - I have heard similar things about Korean culture, esp walking around at night! That would be nice, cos that's when I'm most awake and wanting to go for a walk 😅

@Jynx @rav3n @tyme y’all I really wanna leave this country (Australia) for real. The vibes here is just hella depressing for me already lmao and nothing here is even interesting anymore compared to if I visit other countries that I like 😅😅😅😅