Am Not Coping

Most of the group going @Sam3 are meeting for drinks beforehand - I don't think I will do that but it depends on how I am feeling and if I can get ready in time. Fridays I am usually home early so there should be time to work out when I am going to go and where I will meet them. There is probably not one person in particular in the group that are going that I have become really close to - most of the people I really like are not going so that is a little disappointing but I'm sure the others will welcome me as they have done at work.

I think the nausea is related to the headaches but I haven't had one of my night meds for a few days so it could be that as well - I will discuss it with my GP tomorrow though.

@MDT The assistant principal is going so I suspect there won't be too much work talk - at least none of the bitchiness I encountered at the other place - I just don't get that - it is not necessary.

@Snowie Definitely stepping way out of my comfort zone going to the dinner Hon

Day off was today @Zoe7 . Biggest day tomorrow.

I’m heading out, so will catch you later if you’re still up 😘💕

Edit: Hi everybody 👋👋👋

@Snowie @Sam3 @MDT @Former-Member .... anybody else I have missed in haste .....

I had a feeling tomorrow was your biggest day @Faith-and-Hope because I remembered it coinciding with my 'day off' but wasn't sure if I had got that right or had dreamt it lol

I will look out for you later but will let you know if I head to bed before you check in here again. Hope you have a good night Hon

@Zoe7

Not all workplaces are equal. You might surprise yourself and find a glimmer of party person buried deep. Come to think of it you were leading the way in some of our forum partees

I have gradually found my social side. Part of it was through the forum, so it is fairly recent. Part of it was through music. SInging seriously at my church choir, I would suddenly break out silently with the moves of backing vocals or a cabaret style. I figured that it was like a muscle at the gym, I had to exercise my social muscle to build it up and learn. It is great making people laugh. Tonight I made my conductor laugh quite hard with a droll comment, and quite a few of the blokes also got it. It would lose it in translation.

For so long I felt such a tragic case, that it was very difficult, feeling the right to laugh, and I had not a clue at first. I started off with trying to just be a little light hearted as opposed to funny ... I know you can be funny. Will be cheering in your pocket on Friday night.

@Appleblossom There was a time when I was quite social - used to go out all the time and would talk to anyone. Life certainly gets in the way and things change dramatically. I don't feel comfortable doing that anymore and certainly haven't had any friends I could do that with. That is a result of how I feel about myself and isolating myself from the world to protect myself. The last time I remember going out I was asked out by a really nice guy and I didn't understand at all why he wanted to take me out so I declined pretty quickly. That is what bad experiences with people do though - make us think negaitvely about ourselves and we don't think we are worth that kind of experience.

Cheers from me too @Zoe7 you brave thing you xx

Going to be a testing night for me @eth but also need to try to get out more and do more things. Even if I don't go for long I think it will still be good for me.

Quick hi @Zoe7 👋💕 and anyone else around.

Taking a coffee break.

@Zoe7 you are worth that experience & so much more... & I’m sure many would agree

i@Zoe7 you are worth that experience & so much more... & I’m sure many would agree