Am Not Coping

Hey @Sans911 I also find I can’t cry - for me it’s maybe related to medication (when I recently went off medication after discussing it with my doctor, I was initially much more able to cry, laugh & react emotionally ...but it seems I need the medication which is confronting & disappointing & proves I’m not normal: RED ALERT :police_car_light: unhelpful beliefs!!!).

Out of left field, but has anyone @Zoe7@MDT@Former-Member@Shaz51 been successful with a travel insurance claim for mental health reasons?

I am much like @Sans911 too @Sam3 I get very tired very easily but once I start something I usually find I can keep going until I exhaust myself and then I need to rest.

This morning I went back to sleep rather than getting up and getting moving - I knew I needed it and also lacked the motivation to move - so I am nt too upset with myself. Some days are like that and I am acceptig that. I was more motivated when I was back at work - it is a shame that stopped for the holidays as I now have to get back in that routine again. I do think that havng a routine does help - at least it does for me but again I am not kicking myself for taking it easy right now because I know I will be flat out again when I return to work. That down time is just as important as being always busy.

In saying all that - one of the reasons I am reducing my night meds currently is to hopefully be less tired in the morning as I do struggle with staying awake in the mornings. We are hoping the reduction in meds helps with that.

I look at MI as an other disease that needs constant management - with or without meds @Sam3 I am grateful for the meds because without them I would not be alive - so despite them making me tired they have kept me going and I do feel more 'normal' on them. I think our definition of 'normal' is very different as there is still so much stigma attached to having a MI - something I hope changes in time. MI is just like any other disease or illness - it can be managed and treated and you can get through it will the right support to a stage that you can successfully function day to day - the definition of succesful also changes from person to person as each one has their own level of 'normal' they can and want to reach.

Hi @MDT - still doing the wall in the garage but had a morning sleep after watching the soccer - will hopefully get going a bit more this afternoon but right now it is too windy to do anything outside.

Goodluck with getting your pc fixed - hope they can do it quickly @MDT

I hate the wind so wish it would go away. It also makes it harder to hold things in place when windy.

Enjoy your swimming - hope it helps cool you off today

The wind has dropped a bit here now but still lacking the motivation to get anything done @MDT Hope you have better luck with your pc.

Thanks for your reply @Zoe7 & all the best with the medication reduction. Seems like you have many strengths indeed, & your practical “can do” nature is a huge bonus. Yes routine is important but sadly it’s the thing I’m worst at (along with “to do” lists which were fine until I developed depression). Thanks for the inevitable reminder about “normal” being relative. I am surrounded by extremely competent friends & desperately wish I could be them...just can’t find a retail outlet for that magic wand! Husband & I & 2 younger kids all seem to be feeling ‘blah’. Can’t get motivated at all but have put washing out & might work on another job application. How’s the computer working now @MDT?