Am Not Coping

No motivation yet today @Sam3 but am watching the tennis so that may come later when the tennis has finished. It's a game I wanted to watch last night but it got rained out so it is on today. Yes 'normal' is relative and too often I think we compare ourselves to others rather than working on just improving ourselves - if we can do that then the only person we dissapoint is ourselves and then we can strive to do better next time. Being self-aware helps with our depression as well - and part of that is knowing that rest days/times are inevitable to get through and just accepting those times is all we need to do rther than kick ourselves for not doing more.

good afternoon @Sam3, @MDT, @Sans911, @Former-Member, @BlueBay, @oceangirl, @Former-Member

thank you my sister @Zoe7

we just got home -- we brought half the chemist this morning

me -- I have an infection , on ab`s now , next week have to have more blood test and other tests as my kidney has gone down to 21% and other things are up

Mr shaz has to have an xray next week , the doctor has put him on pain relief and other meds , have to see what the xray says

and then he asked mr shaz about his MI meds and when his last checkup was -- 3 and a half years ago -- the doctor said he needs another checkup so he is going to read up on mr shaz`s past history , so got another appointment marked in

dropped in to see how my mum was this morning

thank you @Sans911 , me too

mr shaz has gone to bed , too much for him i think

how are you today xx

It seems like it was a very good idea getting to the doctor for both you and Mr. Shaz @Shaz51 Good that you have AB for the infection and great that you doctor is going to review Mr. Shaz after so long. I hope the xray is clear for you both but good that it is being done. Both of you are in the wars at the moment so look after yourself as best you can my sister.

great that you doctor is going to review Mr. Shaz after so long. -- yes very true my sister @Zoe7,

it will be interesting to see what he says and what is followered up as we go through a lot of doctors in our small town

yes it was a good idea , just we were not expecting it this morning

It is a good sign that the doctor wants to read the notes first @Shaz51 and that he even picked up that it has been a long time since there has been any assessment or review done - that is all positive. Hopefully he can help you both as well - you deal with so much yourself that it would be nice to have someone on your side helping you too

I’m sending positive vibes to you @Shaz51 & Mr Shaz. Good effort to get to Dr this morning so hope you’re having a relaxing afternoon.

I saw this article by Princess Kate’s brother about his ‘private’ battle with depression which was kind of encouraging;

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-6583137/amp/With-devastating-honesty-courage-JAMES-MIDDLETON-reveals-private-battle-depression.html

Sorry to hear you and Mr Shaz are in the wars atm. I know you both will bounce back. How is your mum? @Shaz51

How are you getting on now @Zoe7. Any motivation kicked in after watching the tennis?!

@Former-Member how are things for you at present?

Hope volunteering went well for you @Sans911

@MDT how are the plans for overseas work going? Do you ever have trouble with motivation?

How's the abstinence going @TAB

I’m so tired of not being able to get into a routine or get motivated, but to be fair I am still recovering from a nasty depressive episode & am on 3x previous medication dose, I was made redundant 3 days ago & I’m grieving my parents & the life I thought I’d be able to give my kids (ie one in which their mother left her bedroom more often lol). Any responses please to making a travel insurance claim necessary due to mental illness? ....on the positive I’m trying to practice gratitude as a regular event.

I’ve been thinking about your comments regarding mindfulness @Former-Member & I know what you mean (especially because I don’t do things routinely nor practice, practice, practice..). I think you mentioned positive neuroplasticity training which I’ve found a bit easier to attempt. Here’s something that @Former-MemberI will no doubt agree with as she’s been doing affirmations:

”As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again & again.To make a deep mental path, we must think over & over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives” - Henry David Thoreau