Am Not Coping

I slept late @Zoe7 and I really need to get to the pharmacy for some eye drops but that sure can wait until I feel like walking down to the bigger pharmacy - I am just not in the mood to push myself today and I have a great movie I taped last weekend - I feel like watching it again today - Oz - The Great and Wonderful. It is the prequel for The Wizard of Oz.

Sometimes I will push myself against my fatigue but time is passing and I am learning to live with it because my age is a valid excuse and I have learned that it only makes things harder if I try and go against my back-pain which flared up with the heat and barometric change late yesterday

But we are both glad it's cooler - I used to like the hot weather - I don't know when that changed for me

Did you get enough rain to stop the fires - and that wind yesterday - wow - I know you don't like the wind

Dec

@Zoe7 Please take it easy on yourself today if meds taken later than usual are still affecting you - I’m sure that’s what you’d say to others!

ah yes @TAB the wisdom of hindsight would save us all time & money, so keep focused on the here & now & the benefits. Hope you’re enjoying time with relatives.

@Owlunar thanks for the reassuring update about the dainty hermit crabs.

If it makes @Zoe7, @TAB@Owlunar@Former-Member@MDT feel any better, I don’t have the raging heat in Victoria & Tasmania but I’m STILL amotivated! I’m passive & rely on others too much & get overwhelmed just trying to work out what to do next - that’s where a routine & some self-discipline would help! @Former-Member I don’t think they were originally my character traits at all, but as pressures increased & I became overwhelmed & depressed & under confident, I’ve become like that more & more. I haven’t got trauma to account for it either. @Former-Member in relation to changing character traits I think the best we can do is work around them to modify/tweak things (but traits are “habitual patterns of thought, emotion & behaviour” according to Wikipedia & I’ve had limited success with changing habits in my lifetime.... but I’m sure you’d find professionals/academics/business people who would sell you a different perspective!).

We didn't get much rain at all - more a drizzle for about an hour and that was it. Was defintiely hoping for more to put the fires out @Owlunar Not sure how much they got in that are but hoping it helped. I know the wind chnged direction yesterdy afternoon and that helped as it was burning back on itself.

I didn't think about the heat affecting your back but it makes sense that it flares up with the heat. Hope that settles for you today - it is so hard to do anything with back pain and yours is way worse than mine so it must be excruciating at a times - I really feel for you Dec.

I have managed to get myself up and dressed so one step down for this morning - also washed up the few things I had and put away some gardening things I had out. Next is to tackle the dining table again...

Up and dressed an getting into things now @Sam3 Still tired but needing to push through it otherwise I will not get anything done today.

I agree that we can change things about us over time but it does take a lot of practice and contunually being mindful of what we are doing to make those changes. Then is begins to become second nature.

Routines and self-discipline are things that also need practice and time and we need to change them up sometimes so they don't get boring. I get bored easily if I am not doing things - but am getting much better at realising when I need to rest and recouperate as well - it is that balancing act between what we need and what we believe we should be doing ...sometimes rest is what is needed in order to do the things we have to do or want to do.

Hi @Zoe7 @Sam3 @TAB @Former-Member @Owlunar @outlander @CheerBear and everyone.

Might be back later.

Bit too much going on here at the moment.

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Hoping everything is okay for you @Former-Member Sending you hugs thinking it is all a bit tricky at the moment

How are your aches & pains today @TAB from W.A.?!

@Zoe7 sounds like your doing well despite feeling ‘below par’ today (isn’t that a weird saying!)

Here’s a positive: @Owlunar @Former-Member @Former-Member I decided to do a little task so I could report it to my motivating forum pals ....drum roll... I put away 5 items of washing (no more, no less!). Did I mention there are 3 basketfuls?! No matter because my 12 yo is on the job. 😀 Have said I’ll cook him pancakes so better do that. Glad I convinced my anxious 17 yo to drive at local Showgrounds for 20 minutes despite his protestations & now claims he’ll try aquirt road tonight. @Zoe7 I wish my boredom could overtake my overwhelm. There are literally so many tasks (even essential ones) that need doing but I choose to sit & avoid because ?disorganised cognition?habit ?husband does it. I genuinely start thinking of a task then decide it’s too hard & do nothing instead. Where/how do I push past the overwhelm & lack of drive & confidence? I don’t have guests here anymore. As mess/stuff has built up over the years with 4 kids I’ve learnt to not let it bother me (which has become not a good thing in recent times).

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I will definitely go to Sweden some day. I have to have that hope of travel in me. Thanks for reminding me.

Things have settled a bit, thanks @Zoe7 💜🦋💪 @Sam3

I just did my affirmations. Feel better for it. It takes 21 days to change/break a habit. I forgot to take notice when I started lol. 🤔

I did sleep mediation first time last night. Then D came home late wanting to chat. 😮😴

Will be trying my best to keep disciplining myself to do it.

I did notice that I was more peaceful.

Sleep not great, but definitely a little better.

I signed up for a trial Pilates class next week. Woo hoo!

Its a start.

Havent had a chance to read everything here.

But hoping your day is going ok Zoe TAB and all.

Catch up when I can.

I did notice you’ve managed to not smoke TAB. Well done 👍

I hope your energy picks up Zoe, after your late night watching cricket.

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