Am Not Coping

its a sign of the times re having online forum. And well if its there may as well use it re people who dont feel the need to. @Sam3 thanks re cigs alc yes alc was a by product and bodys not exactly thanking me at the moment but will be way better off down the track

yes, better in some ways not in others @Zoe7 ..but its for the better .. lol my body has a lot of damage to repair and in some ways seem to be going backwards, but definitely felt like was breathing deeper and easier this morning, could 'taste' the air and feel it in my lungs, havent in years ok it was humid , and sense of smell starting to reappear if fleetingly like a waft of stale cigarette reek after getting back in car today. having regular afternoon naps then what turns out to be another nap, then get about 6 hrs 3rd go. becoming a pattern. Very deep sleep and was nightmares in afternoon, but thats gone now. Have just about dropped lozenges, still doing patches tho, that on its own wasnt enough at the start, plus um getting used to 'thoughts' and just let them go

@Sam3 I made a dent with the dining table stuff - most of what is left is already in boxes or piles that need to be sorted and filed or shredded. I really need to sort it out before I go back to work and despite it going to tske some time it will be worth it in order to have it ll filed away for later planning.

As an update about my garage - presently I have everything stacked in two parts of the garage - the reason is my roof leaks - I am waiting for it to be fixed (my sister's partner is doing it) but have been waiting several months. My garage also got flooded during the last two storms we had so had a lot of damage to tools etc. so really needing the roof fixed before I can put up the new walls and then set up the shelves. Then I can sort and stack things safely (and dry) and have more room to move things into the garage. It is all a big job but my sister has said she will help me do it so that is awesome.

I have a very god team around me - my GP and pdoc I see once a week and my psychologist every fortnight. I also do DBT which is run once a week. It has been a very long road but those behing me have been absolutely amazing. When I was at my worst I was seeing my GP nearly everyday and those days I wasn't (which were her day off and the weekend) she messaged or rang me to see how I was going. I also had my psychologist's number to call if needed and used that a couple of times when I didn't feel like I could get through the day/night. At that stage I was seeing her twice a week but I don't need that kind of support anymore. I am in a much better place than I was and part of reaching that stage hsa been with the support I have had from my team as well as from the wonderful support I have received on the forum. This place has been my lifeline at times when I could not see a way forward and has really got me through some of those darker times.

I think you are doing a fantastic job @TAB I am sure soon you will start feeling the benefits from quitting even more. Keep it up - you are doing so well

@TAB - You're doing amazingly well with giving up the ciggies. Though I've never smoked myself, I have had a family member who recently give up smoking. He did eventually succeed, but I know it was extremely hard. He had smoked since he was about 16yo, and he is now in his mid 50's. He is already noticing some improvements in his lung capacity, so it is never too late to give up smoking and still see many benefits. I have read that the damage from smoking does repair itself after quitting. So its well worth the efforts you are putting into it.

@Zoe7 - Wow ... you have been so industrious! I thought you were lacking in motivation? Despite that, you sound like you are achieving a lot. I am in total admiration of you.

@Sam3 - I love reading your posts and its a great pleasure having you around. Thanks for asking after me. After an awful day on Thursday, I am slowly on the improve.

Hi also to @Former-Member @Shaz51 and others who pass through today. What's in store for everyone today?

Sherry 🌸

Good Morning @Zoe7 yeah Ill google day 5 effects now lol, think missed day 4

thanks @Former-Member yes they say it takes months by my lungs feel different already? dunno

No motivation or energy here today @Former-Member Snuggled on th couch with Toby and feeling very tired. i am hoping I can wake up and get moving soon but it is okay also if I can't.

There are things I want to achieve today but would rather lay down and sleep right now but trying to wake up instead. I was in bed late last night due to watching the cricket and as a result taking my meds late so they are probably still wearing off also - they have a 12 hour half life and I didn't take them until 11pm last night - hoping that I get through the next couple of hours nd then start feeling a bit more awake.

What are you up to today?

Sounds like you are seeing the benefits of giving up already @TAB so that should be an incentive to keep going. I think you are doing an amazing job - not an easy thing to do but you are smashing it