Am Not Coping

@Zoe7. Just wanted to check how you are going now.

If you are going okay and don't need to talk. That is okay. Just keep doing what you are doing to get through this next hour.

If you would like to talk, I am here.

Sending you strenth. Always.

@utopia @Faith-and-Hope

Have made contact with my GP - she is back to work tomorrow not Wednesday as I thought. Just need to get through tonight.

She asked me if I would consider doing the Kokoda Track as a future goal (she's thinking of doing it) - I told her my only future goal atm is to get to tomorrow!

So get through tonight, see her tomorrow - tell her exactly what is (and has) happened this week and take it from there.

@Former-Member absolutely no need to be sorry - I feel bad that I haven't been able to give you any support - you have had so much going on for you - so glad others have been there along the way for you. Just needing to keep my head above water atm - I know you understand how that feels! Thinking of you also xxx

@Zoe7. That is really good. I'm so glad you contacted her. She sounds like a very perceptive and caring woman. My GP is a bit of an advocate for me as well.

No. Now is maybe not the time to think about overseas treks. But her question and your answer gave her some insight into where you are at the moment. And she will be a big help tomorrow. I'm sure she will liaise with your psychologist as well, if need be.

So you just have to muddle through til tomorrow. Have you any ideas on what you can do to fill up the time and try not to focus on your feelings?

@utopia yes she is very perceptive - 'see you tomorrow (long appointment) and one step at a time' was her response. Glad I contacted her or not sure where I would have been by tomorrow. At least now my anxiety about not being able to see anyone until Wed has lessened slightly.

Have the tennis on so have at least have come out of my silent bubble - sound down though - still can't take too much noise.

Took @Faith-and-Hope 's advice and snuggled up with Toby for a while - he just wanted to lick the tears off my face - little sweetheart. Fell asleep for a couple of hours until he decided it was dinner time and wanted to play 'jumpies' on the bed and on me.

Also have taken your advice and am trying to sew up the holes I have found in some of our soft toys from our classroom teddy collection. They weren't very well looked after while I was away.

@Zoe7 and think big too what a great idea .. oops I have a different slant on Kokoda that @utopia she is right .. not to get manic about just yet while you are still vulnerable

but my take is

Just that its natural to get fired up by big ideas and challenges ..

and think of it as a 3 or 5 year plan .. maybe??

Some great baby steps being taken there @Zoe7 .....

Breathe .... evenly and deeply .....

💜💐

Hi @Appleblossom So nice to hear from you

I am too concerned about what is going to happen re: work at the moment and the fact that I know I either can't go back yet or can only do a little at a time. I think this has really added to my stress and anxiety. I really need to work because I literally have nothing left. All my savings are gone and I have no more sick leave left - had to use my long service leave to get through the last part of last year. Do have income protection but it only covers 75% of salary and at this point I can't pay my bills and psych etc on that - have cut back everything I possibly can (and psych has dramaticallyu reduce fee already for me).

So in regards to Kokoda - no money and too unhealthy atm to even consider - it's extremely expensive to do the Track.