Listening to triggering music

I can’t help but wonder maybe I need more meds to get rid of depression, anxiety and loneliness. I only have the medical side of mental health support right now. Haven’t been able to find a psych, so counselling is off the radar for now. I also don’t have many people in my life to get that emotional support and nor do I feel like relying on people. People aren’t dependable

@tyme not really, I’m very frustrated and my face hurts from sinusitis. I don’t know when I can get into my pdoc to talk about medication adjustment since he will be going away for a bit. I suppose I can just take a PRN for now.

Considering I live with mental health, why do I feel like I need to talk to people about it? Why can’t I just get rid of that need? I can certainly suppress emotions, but it doesn’t seem to be working right now. I probably won’t have this need if I didn’t struggle with mental health in the first place

Hey hun, don't be so hard on yourself. We each have our lot. That's how I get through an accept things @creative_writer

But I hear it is hard.

@tyme

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Im at the point I would’ve taken my life if I did not have my faith, it’s the only thing keeping me going. I don’t know why it’s taken me this long to realise I’m going into crisis mode

Absolutely @creative_writer .

I can see your faith is your protective factor. I guess everyone has their protective factor. Faith was one of mine too which kept me going even when things were so hard.

@tyme sometimes you need to find something to hold onto, I’ve been able to find that in my faith.

Being sick doesn’t help, I didn’t even wake up well rested. I was starting to feel agitated yesterday evening. My mind was racing, so something probably happened yesterday to cause this spiral

@tyme I’ve been really sick since the end of December, so haven’t really had a break from this illness. It’s been very rough. I don’t think I’ve been this sick for a very long time. While my fever was low grade, it persisted, and hopefully I don’t have one today. I haven’t checked today. I think this illness definitely played a role in my mental health. Sinusitis can be tricky, it can affect your breathing and cause so much pain. The coughing is very exhausting and it hurts my face and neck when I do cough. I’m guessing it started off viral and ended up turning into a bacteria sinus infection.

I just want to be well and be able to apply for jobs and do the online volunteer training that I need to finish by early Feb. It’s just been so hard to function. I think once I’m able to do things I’ll feel more productive and positive about myself. I do realise my work on my mental health will take time, but right now I feel like I’m getting nowhere

I hear you haven't had a break in a long time @creative_writer .

As for looking for a job, that's a job in itself! It's a lot of work writing applications... all the best with it though.