Never being in a relationship

@RiverSeal

I do appreciate the help but I have contacted them repeatedly in the past on this issue and they dont have anything to help me with. They are like a lot of people in society, they dont realise people who are not in relationships and struggle to get into one exist. I gave them feedback years ago on this issue but I dont think they ever got around to implementing it.

Again, I have exhausted every possible resource I can. There isn't anything out there that I can tell that can help with this stuff.

I went on another date today. It was over in half an hour.

I am doomed to die alone

Well I went on another date today. Initially I thought she had ghosted me but popped back in at the last minute.

It’s a familiar story. Nothing bad happened, good conversation, I was mindful of being expressive, we get to the end of the date (it only lasted one hour which I think is a red flag), and I thought it went well. However, I’m sick of getting to the end of the date where the other person is the arbiter of whether or not we go to a second date. I expressed that I would rather hear it now whether we got a second date or not because I don’t want to drive the 50 minutes home to find out she wasn’t interested. She ends up saying no.

This has happened a bit and I don’t know what I’m not picking up that they are. I thought it went well but clearly I’m missing something. This has really fueled the feelings of rejection again. I know it’s a case of being simply incompatible but I just want to know what I could do more to improve this area of my life.

I feel like my head is about to explode.

I feel so much rage

Is there anyone to talk too?

Hi @Former-Member

I'm around today. How are you feeling?

@Ru-bee

i just feel overwhelming feelings of sadness and hopelessness. I feel so small

I'm sorry to hear that @Former-Member I can see that you've been going through some really hard emotions. I am curious - do you feel that a relationship will alleviate these negative emotions?

I can see that you're concerned about dying alone, which makes me wonder whether we need a romantic partner to bring worth and meaning to our lives? I know that it is natural to want that experience, but I know that there are many people who don't - does that mean that their lives are necessarily worse, or are they just different?

@Ru-bee

I don’t think being in one will cure me or anything. I know there’s stuff I need to take care of first or stuff that’s my responsibility. I’m just sick of putting in all this stuff and literally getting nothing out it. No second date, not anything else. Hell I’d even take a hookup at this stage but that doesn’t look likely to happen either.

I guess it depends on what you value. I value it so it’s important to me. Others may not value it as much and that’s okay. But I don’t want to feel invalidated on something that a lot of people want or have. I think it’s condescending and rude.

I’ve done a lot of introspection and there isn’t much more I can or anything others can say. All conversations just go round in circles