Depression anxiety

Hey @Lula if you need to log out for the moment I understand, the forums can be confusing to navigate at times.

When you feel ready we'd be happy to support you to create a new thread either on here, or you can email us at team@saneforums.org

We can take you through the process step by step.

I'm sorry to hear you so stressed right now @Lula. It's perfectly fine if you feel you need to log off for a while... you know we'll be here when you're ready to come back on. We all have those really bad days Lula, so just do what is best for yourself and your well being for now. If you would like me to start that new discussion for you and tag you into it, i'm more than happy to do that for you if you feel too stressed to do it yourself. Just let me know and I can make it happen for you. Alternatively I could tag you into some of the more active social discussions where you can just chat to a group of us in a friendly, very casual discussion.

Take care and be kind to yourself Lula and hopefully we can chat again soon.

@MJG017

Thank you for your reply and offer to help M.

This is the second time I’ve started this reply - I don’t know how, but somehow my finger caught the screen and everything I had typed was gone. The emoji I would attach here isn’t available on this forum.

For the time being I’ll continue contacting and replying to you from time to time.

bye for now, Lula

@lulu

I access the forum using my PC. If you could see me trying to using it from my phone and hear all the swearing that results, i'm sure you'd feel better about your own struggles. I really don't know how people do it on a phone... it just absolutely does my head in!!! If you see a post from me and it's short and full of typing errors, then I did it from my phone for some reason.

Like I said, let me know when you feel up to digging into the forum further and i'm happy to help you. I'll leave that up to you when you do feel up to it, so there's no pressure at all. We can keep chatting here as much as you'd like.

@MJG017

Hello M

Yesterday, and even more so today, have been so incredibly hard. I woke to the news on FB yesterday that a very well respected and much loved member of the small-ish community I live in had passed away by his own hand. I didn’t know him privately but was around enough socially for me to be feeling absolutely gutted and sick in the stomach. It’s hit home really hard today. He was quite young with a young family and it’s so very painful to come to terms with.

I do know people I could talk with but no one ‘understands’ and ‘hears’ me the way I need to be understood and heard and that is so painful too.
I know I could call Lifeline etc, but that won’t work for me.

You M are the closest I can get to people being understanding - thank you for being there.

I’m on a pension and today a ‘one-off cleaning lady’ turned up - she had massively artificially blacked eyebrows, long black hair, dressed head to toe in black and including black gloves - I was gobsmacked - it was like the angel of death knocking on my door.

We had a massive storm here a few days ago - I’ve never before seen or heard anything like the lightning and thunder we got - the thunder was big enough, close enough, to make the ground around my place vibrate through the building. Today it’s heavily overcast and barely a leaf moving - this weather really is quite depressing as well - climate change UGH !

I want to cry my heart out - but it won’t come.

Hey @Lula ,

I'm sorry to hear how challenging things are for you. You deserve to feel heard and understood.

I hope you find ways to practice some self-care.

Feel free to reach out if you need some company.

@tyme

thanks Tyne - I did reach out - to @MJG017 was what I intended but I had to edit who it went to 😖

Thanks for replying. I would love some company - but I’d like it to be here in the room with me ideally - none of you can do that sadly

The forums are a community which mean the entire community can read what you are posting and hence others also reply @Lula .

I'm sorry I cannot be with you in person, but I guess I'm here online at the same time as you if you need it.

Hi @Lula. I just woke up from having my endoscopy in the hospital and saw your posts. Ill reply fully when i get home, but I just wanted to send you a quick message and let tou know im thinking of you in this difficult time and yes, it would be nice if we could be in the same room and have a good chat.

Take care, and I'll send another reply soon.

@Lula

That is such terrible heartbreaking news about that young man in your community. And with his own yiung family as well 😥 It just shows what a huge problem mental health in our society today. This should never happen, but sadly it does, and in far far too high a number.

It onky natural that news like that would shake you up, it would anyone. But while dealing with you own struggles, it would be so much harder. Obviously the weather and your visit from this "angel of death" aren't helping your mood right now. Its clearly a lot to deal with but im glad you feel like you can at least come here and talked about it with people you feel understand. I think we do, or we really try to, so im glad you find it helpful so please never hesitate to reach out if you feel you need to, or even if you would just like a chat.... even if its not sitting down together in the same room. Take care Lula.