I don’t feel right

Hugs @Eden1919 I'm so glad you're sleeping. Your poor tired body and brain would have a lot to catch up on.

Soothing eye drops might help your eyes. It's hay fever weather here at the moment, maybe it is where you are too.

Take care, I hope tomorrow's a better day.

@Eden1919 I think @Dimity raised a good point about hayfever - just in terms of the simple fact that it could be a contributing factor to your current mental state. Maybe not a very big one, but it can be helpful to remind ourselves of allllll of those little factors that might be adding to our distress. Cos I know for myself, when I'm stuck in that super dark place, all those little things don't ever pop into my mind and I misconstrue every single negative feeling as an indicator of personal failure - forgetting that hey, maybe I feel like this because I haven't slept properly in three days, not cos I'm actually a piece of crap!

When you've felt this low in the past, what sort of things have eventually broken the spiral for you?

Hearing you @Eden1919 ,

Hope you feel better soon.

Are you in hospital or at home?

@Dimity @Jynx i dont get hayfever so it is not that.

@tyme i am at home

i am still feeling terrible and everything is too much and i am really struggling to keep up and i keep crying and my head doesnt feel like mine and i just i feel like shit and idk how much longer i can take this i am so exhausted and nothing is helping and i am supposed to be doing things but i just cant and i am really struggling and i just idk what to do anymore i am trying so hard but it is never enough.

Hi @Eden1919 I've just been catching up on this thread and I hear how hard things are feeling right now. I wanted to check in on how you're feeling his morning?

I'm here with you

Sorry it sounds so hard @Eden1919 . Is it worth talking to your team about how things have been going for you?

Also, I notice that we see you on the forums a bit, but then you disappear for a while, and then you come back. Of course that's totally okay! I'm just curious to understand if it's because you feel better and you don't feel the need to use the forums?

Please note, it is totally okay that you take time away from the forums. I'm just trying to gauge any patterns.

Also, please not that you don't have to respond if you don't want to.

I hope you feel supported.

Hugs @Eden1919 - we care about you.

Hoping things are improving for you @Eden1919

@Dimity thanks, things have not gotten better though sadly.

@Ru-bee i am not feeling good at all today.

@tyme i am not disappearing because i feel better usually it is because i feel even worse and dont have it in me to post anything or i am too exhausted to respond or i just feel like things are too bad that i cant post here because people will react in a way that is not helpful for me anyway my breaks are not because i feel better.

i am still struggling a lot i have been trying everything i can to try and feel better but i am just i feel so bad and everything is just so overwhelming and idk how to even explain it properly i just feel like shit. i keep crying and i just idk everything hurts and all i want to do is curl up in the dark and sleep all day and night but even if i did i would still be exhausted and i just it hurts.

@Eden1919 I'm so sorry to hear that things are feeling so constantly hard right now, it must be taking so much strength to be getting through each day, it's understandable that you want to sleep.

I know it can be really hard when you're in a dark space to see any lightness, but I was wondering if there have been any moments in the last few days where things felt a little easier or lighter, even if it was just for a little bit?

Hugs @Eden1919

Weeks of highs then so many lows. Do the lows last weeks as well?

Does your uni work help at all?

I hope your support worker is still helping with shopping and other stuff.

I've had a cold I caught at a rare family catch-up. My coughing worried the poor cat earlier. My brain is foggy.

Take it easy. Sleep is OK if you need it I hope you don't get bad dreams Look after yourself, eat regularly. You've ridden it out before. I just wish they could find a better med for you.

Sending you every good wish.