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hello @Former-Member @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope

i have been reading through all of the posts, I think so, i'm finding that i'm not very good at this at the moment.

i cannot begin to express how strong you must be to be in your situation.

The others will be able to respond appropriately.

be gentle with yourself and remember you love your children so much and they love you.

breathe, moment by moment, just today not yesterday or tomorrow just be in today. xx

Dear @Former-Member

I read your post late last night and thought must reply to you but then fell asleep. So I finally found the post and just want to say to you - @Former-Member I am thinking of you and wish there was something I could do for you.

It's so tough for you, but I reckon you are a strong person andn a very good mum.

Take care my friend 🙂

thank you all,

i'm just focussing on getting through tomorrow. think we are mostly ready. have to drive quite a way to the hospital (its about 120kms or so) and havent been there before. Have to be there by 8 am so its going to be an early morning. Have got things ready/food sorted for next few days. hopefully it will go ok.

i keep losing time and disappearing into my other place. cant stay present for long at the moment. auto pilot is funcitoning though i think.

thank you again, it helps to be here

lj

❤️💕 .... @Former-Member

Hi @Faith-and-Hope @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Former-Member

sons surgery went well today, as well as it could go really. and he was able to come home as he has a hugely high pain threshold and was drinking and eating ok. but he's a bit anxious about the pain he is feeling. (fair enough!) I'm hoping its going to make a massive difference to him. He was so brave.. and polite and nice to all the nurses/drs doing strange things to him.

Its been a massive day for me, though i did ok for him (i think). But starting to unravel a bit now. anxiety high and then vaguing out. so tired as havent slept more than three hours the last few nights. and i know im not going to sleep well tonight because im too worried my son will have a complication from surgery.

brain going from topic to topic (unhelpful topics) and round and round. Distractions arent working. but just trying to keep going back to distractions every time i notice i've gone off again but im exhausted.

thanks @Faith-and-Hope i'd forgotten to stop and do those simple deep breaths today.

hope your travels are ok today and everyone gets on ok! you may need some deep breathing as well!

hugs

@Former-Member

I'm so sorry you have been through this, I was in the same state as you yesterday. Its horrible when you are trying to be strong for someoneelse and you are so drained and tired it starts to make you ill. You sound like a very loving mother. My day yesterday was because of someone causing us scandals and rumour (narissistic SIL) but we have blocked all contact now so we dont have to endure the rants, abuse and absolute lies. We know that we are being trashed behind our backs but we dont care, we dont have any friends either to support us but fortunately we are supporting each other. It sounds like we were both ina very similar state of mind yesterday due to similar circumstances.

Inregards to the statement of i dont know why i dont tend to get responses from people.

I felt like that yesterday too and at other times, start to wonder am I offending people, do people just think I'm a nutter and dont want to reply, what am I doing wrong. All this was going through my mind again yesterday, I didnt reply to you because I was desperately trying to keep myself together and didnt want to be triggered. Then I realised maybe thats why others dont reply to us - I hope its as simple as that but I really understand how you feel there.

I feel a lot better today so I am to respond.

Take care @Former-Member there are people on here that support you more than you think!