Saying goodbye to pop

Today was hard. Pop is weak. And thin.

He will be leaving us.

We just dunno when.

My hearts breaks and aches.

For him and for nan

I just don't want him to suffer

The thought if him being in that place on his when he'd rather be next to nan in bed asleep and she wants that too.... it's so hard

Maybe this is my small burden to carry while nan carries hers and Pop his.

I felt like a kid again today. All I wanted to do was share the vanilla slide with my pop. But we couldn't.

Whatever part of me was hurt by that is a part of me that came out today. But what can I do. Nothing much. It isn't fair. I know that but I feel it and feeling it is different.

It will be hard.

But the love is what gets us by.