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Red's house

Red's house

Hi, I haven't been here consistently for a little while. Shutting myself off felt safer. I was formed after being suicidal last month. I needed to remove myself from online worlds for my safety and that of others. I'm doing better now, I'm just stressed out.

I enrolled myself to full time study at tafe in a few weeks. Getting that all done pushed me to my limits. But im looking forward. I have dreams. I have hopes. I have desires.

I want to pursue my business and my art talents. I will be doing a cert iv in business to give myself the skills to thrive in this. I want to have a future, which is great but scary. It gives the opportunity for failure. But also success. I got this.

Breathe, Red, breathe, create you're safe place. This thread I'll be hanging out more and try not to be too down or hard for myself. If anyone wants to hang out at my place they are always welcome.

There's always tea and coffee, with biscuits if desired. In this winter the fire is on and we can Chillax

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@The-red-centaur ohhhh big transitional moment for ya!! Thanks for sharing 😊

Moving house is always such a time hey 😵 But it's definitely a good opportunity to let stuff go!! I am building up to doing a big household CULL... gotta get vicious and not let my sentimentality win 😅

Aww it warms me to know how connected you feel with your supports. Even if it is a professional relationship, it doesn't mean it's not special or meaningful!

Big love to ya hun! 💜

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My head has been chaotic lately. Lots of conflicting thoughts and feelings. I feel fake. I can't make up my mind.

Like I'm proud of how far I've come ...but I'm also terrified. It's hard to keep it up. I'm tired. Memories hurt my head. Being sick having to rest is hard. I usually distract the hell out of myself but I'm spending lot of time in bed. Urghhh. Brain decide you what you want and be done with it. Not all this chaos plz

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True that @The-red-centaur ,

The brain can be a pretty powerful thing, eh?

I'm glad you can also recognise how far you have come.

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Move day. It's 37° today...I'm so glad I'm miving to a house with air con. It's going be 40 tomorrow too so yeh.

I've been up since 430 coz I'm really stressed about it. I'm taking a break from checking and rechecking everything. Urghhhh. Just calm the farm red.

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Everything is toooo loud.

I can't

I just can't.

Make it stopppppp

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Sighhh i cnat deal with my head. There si just too much noise. It hurts. I just need everything to like stop. Life can fick off. Everything can fick off. Why won't it fcking stop.

I. Done.

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I've been so self absorbed.....I should just go.....

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Urghhh i can't get support work attention. I just can't life rn.

I'm sorry I just don't know what to do. I'm sory for existing for being a pain for everything. Um I just shouldn't even be here. So many other people need this rn.

I'm sorry e y.

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I'm so tired. I can't sleep. I was overwhelmed yesterday and just couldn't deal. I'm over life rn. I don't want to exist.

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