Support for Flowerlove22

Hi @Sunnyside226 , thank you. When you say the thoughts are really strong, are you talking about the thoughts of suicide? Are you feeling that you can manage your way through them ok?

yes I am talking about the suicide thoughts @espressologic everything is coming down fast I feel like I failed the kids I failed them because my health got bad I try to be perfect I did my best in my head I wasn't good enough

I feel as tho I didn't do good enough I need to do more I give up on them when I shouldn't have i am a bad person for giving up on family

Hi @Sunnyside226 💜

I realise this is a tough time for you, but you have managed to recognise how you were feeling and took steps to ensure that the kids are safe so I believe you did not fail the kids and did your best.

You are not a bad person. I can see that you are compassionate and care for them a lot.

I am worried for you and wanted to ask if you can do something to look after yourself today? Any self-care rituals or things to distract you from the heavy feelings?

@lavenderhaze i have done everything

There's not much else I can do

Sorry I didn't mean to worry you or anyone I will go

Aw no you didn't worry me @Sunnyside226, just wanted to check in ❤️

I am sorry that nothing helped 😞 It's always hard when you try everything and nothing makes you feel better

Do you have anything that you have to do today or will you be able to have some rest?

@lavenderhaze i am doing nothing today buuuut my partner isn't happy I let the weeds grow long I might cut and pull them out tomorrow I am not talking about the drugs weed just in case people get up me

I am crying I feel lost in my head am I really worth caring for? Please be honest have I let the kids down ? @lavenderhaze sorry for this just in my head today 😔

You don't have to apologise to me, @Sunnyside226!

I have been in situations where I have felt similar things - it's a hard place to be in. Sometimes, our brain lies to us, and in times like that, it's okay to seek support from people you trust.

You are definitely worth caring for! In my honest opinion, you assessed the situation and took necessary steps for their benefit, so I genuinely believe you haven't let them down at all.

@ArraDreaming thankyou

@lavenderhaze i took too much on didn't know I would end up in a big mess

I feel so drained mentally tired I feel pointless

I feel flat down the mental pain is too much

I hear you @Sunnyside226, sitting with you 💜

Have a rest today and look after yourself, it's important. You can't pour from an empty cup.