AppleblossomSenior Contributor
APPROACHING SURE?
I had a drive into the country yesterday to attend a christmas lunch with people that I did not really know. I am needing to process what happened. If anyone would like to respond.
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APPROACHING SURE?
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Unknown userMember
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Hi @Appleblossom,
i just wrote a response to you and lost it by hitting cancel again. Feeling a bit devastated over it 😬😠
thank you for your response. It helped me by confirming some things. I'll try to see if I can respond again later 😔
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Appleblossom
YOU'RE A BLESSING!
thank you!
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
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I am feeling a little better about my son and changing direction with choirs.. taking on board @Former-Member 's idea .. that maybe it was meant to happen .. and that maybe I can have better situations that are not so much hard work.
Thanks all for support.
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
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@Appleblossom
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
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I am curious what things were helpful and what things were confirmed @Former-Member ?
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I'm crossing over a bit in threads here with you @Appleblossom. I'm having a huge identity crisis and lots of insecurity. You confirmed to me how important the talents that you have and in particular music have given you enough joy and drive to help you through the tough times. That they are possibly quite correlated with what helps to keep you on this planet. I was in a kind of dark place when I wrote that. I guess I was looking to find meaning or purpose in my life and looked to you to confirm yours. I'm not talking about the responsibility to stay for others but what is within. You answering my question in the way you did helped me to know I have to find something from within that gives me peace or moments of joy. Big friggin ask right now but anyway.
The past few weeks I question everything and my need to feel like I belong or fit is huge. For me I'm at the other end of the scale to you in that I have spent my life being a chameleon.... fitting in to others needs, only finding joy if others did, taking all my cues from others. There has never been a within, a me, a self. And I'm so terrified of it all right now. This is why I'm back sitting in my car right now scared to go home where I'll be eaten alive today as I'm feeling so very vulnerable. Sorry for this. Kind of bizarre timing of this post.
The past few weeks I question everything and my need to feel like I belong or fit is huge. For me I'm at the other end of the scale to you in that I have spent my life being a chameleon.... fitting in to others needs, only finding joy if others did, taking all my cues from others. There has never been a within, a me, a self. And I'm so terrified of it all right now. This is why I'm back sitting in my car right now scared to go home where I'll be eaten alive today as I'm feeling so very vulnerable. Sorry for this. Kind of bizarre timing of this post.
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
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Dont worry about the timing @Former-Member
I am used to the bizarre
Not sure what you will find within to help. Art and social consience ... ???
I also have been a chameleon ... to fit in .. at quite an extreme level .. even here ..
music has been important but there have been some torture aspects in it too .. which is why I still need to write .. Mother forcing excess practise major contribution to neck issues in late 20s .. so its still complicated .. and not just because I enjoy making it so.
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I guess you just consolidated the notion that it is impossible to look at one successes from the outside and know the journey within @Appleblossom. Here with you and hoping you find some peace today 💜🤗
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Hi @Appleblossom, looking everywhere for a thread that might be yours. This is the closest I found. How are you today?
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
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Thank you for looking for me @Former-Member It means a lot to me.
Yep this is one of my threads.
I am ok .. hot & sweaty .. going to have shower and get ready for singing Bach tonight.
My brother just phoned so we chatted far an hour.
My son is out and about in the heat ...he forgot his water but will sort it he says ... YAY thats the attitude my son ... hope its not too bad ...
Last night he also did a great thing .. I had mucked up my music stand and it was all twisted .. it was a nuisance and I hadnt figured out how to fix it yet .. my bad .. It has been hanging around in piano room like that for a few months .. my son has been notoriously unpractical and it really worried me ... that he couldnt "fight his way out of a paper bag" .. but he fixed it ... in a few minutes .. we were watching Peep show .. which he loves .. and he was in a positive mood with energy .. and Wallah .. it got fixed .. so much relief .. I so knew he needed to be able to manage stuff off the computer ..
I hope you are settling back home in a good way .. take in all the familiar stuff .. that you have collected into a home .. that suits you .. it doesnt need to suit other people's views and opinions ...
give the dog a rub down pat for me .. if its not too hot there. The cat just sat on my foot as I am typing this .. probably knew I was giving out good vibes to another animal .. and got jealous .. hmmm . psychic .. puddy tats. I had just shared a pork chop with him ... my bad .. thats a saying I think I got off you .. sis
