ArraDreamingSenior Contributor
I pulled an almost all nighter looking for things about my mum
- sat in the garage couldn’t stop looking on the internet, looking through paperwork, looking through emails and a really small handful of pics, just trying to find anything I could to feel connected to my mum
- wife came in asked me to come to bed we hung out and both went to sleep, then I woke up got my phone out again in the middle of the night
- didn’t get much sleep at all
- looking for any information I can to feel close to my mum, is there things I don’t know that I could find out
- is there information out there thst can help me
- Is there confirmation out there that she did/didn’t love me
- If dad had no influence would she have been able to look after us would she have been well if it wasnt for him
- Trying to look for more pics of her before it all goes from my memory
- Was it her choice to have us taken away? Probably not no, was it better that way for her that we weren’t there? Probably
- what kind of grandparent to my kids would she be?
- was she ever happy when we were around?
- reading the documents trying to find information about her, I know she liked purple things but what else did she like? before she had kids what things did she like to do, none of it’s on there it’s just reports and stuff about us
- she never wanted us to go I thought she did I always though she wanted to give us up because she hated us but that’s not what happened
- she really tried she asked the school to help us with food the school gave us food every day because mum asked for it not because they knew we were hungry mum actually tried she fought for us
- she fought to have us back
- she put up with my dad cause she thought that was what she had to do
