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Hi @kato

Please don't apologise or feel like a downer. We don't see it that way. We just want to help - so I'm sure I don't speak alone when I say that I'm really glad you came on here and shared what's going on.

There's no denying it - you received some pretty tough news today and it's not surprising that it's got you down. Don't be too hard on yourself for what you're feeling.

I know it's really hard for you to think about anything positive right now, but how about we put together a plan of how to get you through the next few months. It already sounds like you have some things lined up that could contirbute to the plan - you're seeing a new psychiatrist and you have an appointment with a psychologist coming up. I know you will be honest and straight forward with them about what you're going through, so I'm sure they will have strategies to contribute to a plan of keeping you safe.

I also think it would be worth 'visiting the forums' as part of your plan. Once a day, even if you don't feel like it, schedule in 1 visit. Perhaps make it for 7pm nightly?

While I'm not saying that things will spike back up to the good mood you were in yesterday, it would be beneficial to have some things in place to at least keep you safe for the time being.

Another part of the plan could be to call one of the following numbers;

Menshelpline 1300 78 99 78 ( online counselling - https://www.mensline.org.au/user/register

Lifeline: 13 11 14 (online counselling - (Crisis chat https://www.lifeline.org.au/Get-Help/Online-Services/crisis-chat)

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 (online counselling - https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/register

What else could we add to the plan?

Dear God @kato

This is really horrible. I am so sorry to hear that. Please keep in touch, we will offer you whatever support we can.

There is no need to apologise for telling us the truth of what is going on for you. This is not a "downer" it is reality.

I can really relate to the experience of hurting everywhere as a result of this. I know at this point it probably feels easier to give up, and even go to jail. Please don't give up. I know the waiting will be very hard, even excruciating at times (like now). It's a huge shock.

@Rick have you any ideas that might help please?

Kato I think Nik's idea of at least touching base with the forum once a day, and making a plan for how to get through these few months, is a good one. Hang in there my friend.

Even in the midst of chaos...

hope does endure.

Thoughts & prayers are with you

Kindest regards,

Kristin

@kato

Hey Kato,

Rick here,

Well you are right! It's important to recognise when we are in a world of shite.

You see it and that means that your perception is still reliable. Take a morsel for that.

To even be thinking jail time you must be dealing with felonies and some fairly serious ones.

Is that correct? I ask only as a sounding board to reflect it back to you for reality checking. This does not diminish the fear and worry but at the same time it never hurts to look from an other POV.

Have you engaged a mental health support service? As well as focusing on recovery they are integrated to support everything form going to colllege to support in legal matters. This can often mean expediting the normal process.

http://www.neaminational.org.au/

http://www.mifa.org.au/

http://www.minetworks.org.au/

Nik made an excelleent suggestion about using the forum each day. Consider this please, isolation right now will only harm you and at the same time generate worry for you.

I know that you do not wish to burden anyone, and that is the reason you miight consider staying in the loop.

As for paying a lawyer see what you can get from the support services above, and please understand this. by making sure you are well represented you parents will lose that sense of powerlessness which is the greatest burden of all.

I don't know your history with them but if you care for them you must consider letting them care for you.

If you have f#ucked up then you are not alone. I have done so, more than I can ever regret enough and I know that many others here on the forum will say the thing.

It will take time for court proceeding to begin, so in the mean time you can focus on your health.

I ask you to please follow up on the support services. If we knew each other in person I would do it for you.

I ask also you use us as a walking stick, we cannot walk for you but we can support you as you do so.

I do not think I am alone when I say that you are important to this forum of fruitloops. You are a great support to those in need and an encouragement for all.

The future does not exist yet, the past does not exist only the present has actual form and density. Live in this presence.

Allow hope which is eternal to rise again in your being. Let it be a hope for presence. If all l other hope eludes you, hope for presence.

I will check the boards daily for your posts. I expect to see them and you can expect a reply.

This is my promise to you.

I will also pray for you and your family

No less than at any other time

Hope endures my friend

Rick

i am feeling a little better today

my aches and pains are lessoning

my thoughts are not leading me astray

my emotions are still in check

my thanks to one and all

blessed am i too have found this place

sanctuary from my fears

no bottled up emotions here

no need to hide my tears

freedom to partake in helping others

guidance to those in need

so i thank you all again and again

and hope to be able to pay it back

when you're in a time of need

Thank you

@kato

I'm pleased your feeling leveled out dude.

Just get in here an post a little each day. Thank you for your kindness today in your response to my post.

Take care of you

Hope endures

Rick