A Poem? Maybe?

My Dear friends on this Forum,

Again thank you to everyone's support and well wishes, very much appreciated.

So, i hear you all ask, what was thee outcome of all this mess you created back last year.

I was not too sure how much help legal aid were going too be, as i had trouble with them all last week, today tho, i arrived a little early, waited and waited and waited some more, then i got too meet the lawyer representing me, and we ran through the statements and stuff.

so i got there at 10:30am, case scheduled for 11am..... well not really courts are weird with the way they work, as i found out, came back after lunch at 2pm, case was heard at 3:30pm, feeling quite worn out and strung out emotionally and physically but keeping it together because i had my parent's with me.

Lawyer got two charges dropped, i pleaded guilty to thee other two, judge was understanding of thee impact of mental illness, being bipolar and the associated increased risk of using drugs, and the outcome

12 months Good behaviour Bond and a fine too thee courts - Best possible outcome for me, i am so relieved, i thank thee fact that since it all falling apart i have been arduosly pushing to get myself back on track, getting thee right help from Gp, psychologist and psychiatrist and also seeking out D and A help on my own as well.

I thank the forums for helping me keep on track with these things as i know i have struggled in the past.

I will have a good sleep tonight, probably the first one in months

Thank you

Excellent news indeed Kato. Sound like a really good outcome. Now you can relax a bit with all that behind you. Congratulations and a big hug. Well done

Dearest @kato

That is such wonderful news! So I got my wish and your mum's best mother's day present came today. You must be so exhausted and relieved. I'm really pleased to hear that the Magistrate "got it". And of course well done you for all your hard work in seeking help, taking responsibility, and trying all you can to be well and improve on the things which have been catalysts for your MI.

I know what you mean about the way the court works. I had the same thing when I was asked by SOCA to appear at the Magistrate's Court for the IVO against my little one's dad. I was told to be there by 9, 9.30 at latest. It wasn't heard until after lunch. I was absolutely wrecked and I only had a kind lady from Safe Futures to support me, and of course she was fairly busy with several others there for similar issues. I felt like a train wreck by the time I drove home.

Have a relaxing evening and a peaceful night's sleep.

Hope for grace endures...

Kindest regards,

Kristin

Hi @ Kato

It was a priveladge for us to hold your hope for you and even more to hear you taking it back for yourself..

Hi @kato

Sorry, I'm a little late to this discussion - have had some time off the Forums.

But what a lovely news to come back to, and even more lovely to see how the community was there for you during a difficult time. It's so wonderful to see.

They say time heals all wounds

I ask how much time It takes

My physical pain hasn't become less

My mental pain hasn't become less

Have I come to terms with the life of pain

Or have I just come up with ways to hide it all even from myself

As I lie to myself and the world I have become that lie

I argue with my demons

I argue with myself

I argue with the world

I have to accept what I am to move forward

I am not whole in body or mind

The body will never be

The pain will never lessen this will only say or get worse oh the fun to look too?

The mind will charge will it be better or just more hurdles?

I now understand how some say stop this is now too much and no value to keeping up the fight

I will keep fighting for I have a reason she's the one that makes me want to get up and take on the next day

Karen is my light I goto when I can't believe that I can go that one more step

Karen is my angel that is always there

I don't know how long this time it takes to heal or if it ever will

The only way to kwow is to keep taking another step.

Scorpion